Problem with talking about it and lying

[btosm14]

I am new on here. I was wondering if anyone had experienced something similar to me. I have wanted to tell someone what had happened to me. However, when the time came for me to finally talk about it... I told my best friend part of the truth, however, I ended up just telling him a lie... it wasn't completely opposite what had really happened, I just couldn't tell him the real truth. Ever since, I talked about it though, I have had horrible flashbacks and mood changes. I get really scared and depressed and I can't seem to deal right. I feel like I am becoming a person that I am not. I can't understand it... and I was wondering if anyone else has experienced anything like it and/or could provide me support or explination please.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Hi, it sounds like you were'nt ready to talk about your experience. I am sad you are having flashbacks and mood swings. It sounds like you got triggered badly. You probably did not feel safe to tell the whole experience to you friend. I would just trust your instincts. A harmless white lie is not going to hurt anybody.

Mabe you need to not talk about your experiences with your friends right now. It sounds like a safety issue to me. You probably were not feeling safe. I would not worry about it. It is not the end of the world.

You take good care of yourself while you go through this with the flashback and the mood swings and the scared feelings and the depression. I hope this helps. It is just my opinion. Take what works and toss the rest.

 

[wallflower]

If you are comfortable, you can tell the truth, that you are not ready to talk about all of it. A true friend would accept this, and when that happens, maybe you will be able to trust him more. I have struggled with what to tell people and how much. I'm not sure if it's a trust issue or if I am afraid of being judged. It just seems too private to share for me right now.