Ptsd Feeling Burned Out

[Mallaky]

Does anybody else feel like every little thing is too much?

I am afraid for every thing that takes some work besides a few things.

Doing the dishes, going for a walk, etc I cannot bring myself to do the things sometimes for weeks. I feel so burned out, and afraid, at the same time sometimes. It will take a long time until I get a doctor, and I don't want to continue without trying to become better. When I have a conversation with someone and they say something stupid I do not find the strength and energy to argue or even discuss, I just go like "whatever." This isn't healthy in a relationship.

I just want to sleep and not leave my flat and play videogames and read all day, I long for some peace, but the world goes round and round and I cannot keep up. Every night I have nightmares, I don't even know what feeling rested feels like. My hubbybear has to do work for three and I feel so bad about this, yet he says its OK. But I don't think it is. In the past I drank alcohol to get some sense of calm and peace, but I promised to stop and now it feels like nothing is between me and the loud deathmetall concert that is my life.

 

[sessie]

I think we all go through times like this, to one extent or another. I cried the other day because the bread was moldy. WTH?

I always like the bucket metaphor... Imagine your capacity for stress is like a bucket and the stress filling you up is water...sometimes the bucket gets SO FULL that any little thing (dirty dishes, stupid comments, moldy bread, the kids fighting) makes it cascade all over the place and you just can't deal. It's not that little thing that does it--it's all the residual stress that filled the bucket to the 99.9% mark.

Sounds like your bucket is just full to the top. The meniscus is bulging out. You don't have room for ANYTHING else. Your bucket just needs to get emptier...that might take time, that might take rejuvenation (videogames, books, solitude), that might take more therapy or exercise or whatever it takes for you. Can you maybe think of things that DO make you feel better and might take away some of that underlying "water" in your "stress bucket"? And do those things with NO GUILT. Do them because you need to. Even if it means playing video games til your brain rots! Sometimes that is what you need.

HUGS.

 

[mamachick]

I feel the same way. I have days where unloading the dishwasher and filling my dogs water bowls just seems like too much. Everywhere I go in this big house-I see something that needs done. It feels overwhelming. I do the same tuning out activities as you. Then if I dont keep up on stuff, it really accumulates. I feel like it takes all of my energy just to maintain status quo, which is not much life.

I think the past traumas have caught up with me. I just want to sleep too. I love to sleep but have to take meds to get to sleep. Once I do, I dont want to get up. Sometimes sleeping 16 hours at a clip. This is usually following a bigger stressor.

I am sorry that you experience this too. Maybe it is the bodys way of healing

 

[ms spock]

I feel this way too.