Hi and welcome to the forum. I am a CPTSD sufferer too from abuse. I have done EMDR and found it very traumatic but helpful x I'm sure you will find lots of support on this forum , everyone has a past some more horrific than others but what we do share are the symptoms , the hard work , the good and bad days, the happy and sad days, the tears the triggers the flashbacks , as you know the list is endless but this forum has been my rock , when I first came on here I was desperate to talk to people to see if they felt like I di d because I felt so lost and lonely and very confused, everyone was fantastic, so supportive and filled me with confidence, and guaranteed if I'm having a bad day I can offload here without feeling like a weirdo or that I am crazy and without being judged . I'm confident you will recieve lots of support and make some very good friends. Good luck on your journey x