PTSD Law Enforcement

[trying Hard]

Hello,
I'm new to this form, and writing anything to strangers is a huge step (positive I guess).

I am a diagnosed sufferer as well as a caregiver. I've been in law enforcement for over 23 years serving mostly in high risk roles. Like most people in this business I was a master of pushing down my feelings. I never expected that one day my cup would overflow and reveal the demons and the pain that I was holding down for years.

I have found that PTSD is a very selfish sickness. Being able to admit that I have something going on that is not normal has not been easy. I have struggled dealing with the fact that I have PTSD and worried about the perception associated with PTSD. With Help I seem to be dealing with it, although I still have flair ups (triggers) which seem to sneak up on me at odd times without prediction.

So this is I guess the start of my story.

 

[amethist]

Hi trying hard

Welcome to the forum.

You have found a great place for advice and support with all things ptsd. Take everything slowly here, there is no need to rush telling you story.

For now just read all you can and see how far other have travelled down the road of recovery, you will be able to do the same in time.

Take care and good luck.

Amethist

 

[Tessa]

Welcome to the forum.

I am a PTSD sufferer and carer also. Hope you find all the care,information and support you need here.

Take care
Tessa

 

[Clydiechick]

Welcome

You should find support here. The stigma of a cop crumbling doesn't do much for the image. But it happens, it means you are human. You have taken the first step, which is very brave.

Good luck, take care, see you around the forum

Clydiechick

 

[TheMonk]

As a retired member of the "Brotherhood of the Blue" I can say you have done the right thing. Got PTSD in 68 in Nam but, didn't realize it because I went from the Army right on to the Force. (Michigan and the Denver Metro area). Didn't get diagnosed until 95. I know it's hard to start dealing with this or talking to others because we were supposed to be bulletproof. I too worked undercover, Metro type units and K-9. While a Cop some of the PTSD symtoms made me a great Cop (Hypervigilance, big Startle Refex and always the first one through the door) We are not supposed to be weak, falible or indecisve that's for Civilians. It's not true, we are human. All that Roll Call Tough Guy stuff (I was a master at it) was expected in the Brotherhood. I'm new to this Forum stuff also and I understand your apprehension but, don't worry about what others may think. I get the feeling that the people in this Forum are sincere. As to those other people who don't understand or feel that they have no weaknesses, "What goes around, comes around." Save yourself you are not alone.

 

[fhawn]

Hello,
I’m a violent crime survivor and I am a female that has worked in a male close custody prison for over 12 years. I have had to cover my symptoms and press on to hide my PTSD from co workers, supervisors and inmates. All in hopes of not being seen as a liability to the department. Just want to say I’m glad you’re here and welcome to the forum.

 

[FightingLily]

Welcome to the forum. You are right, PTSD is very selfish. I understand the worry about the perceptions of others. We are all afraid of being judged and of being labeled as damaged, weak, and sub par in the careers/life we've chosen. I am glad you have found this place and hope you find it informative and supportive.
Best Wishes,
FL