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I am a 21 year old guy, I am currently studying finance at a university in England. Well, about my childhood, I had a happy and normal childhood till I turned 13, when I was sexually abused by an employee, more specifically a driver, I didn't tell anyone then though this continued for over a month, because some how this ruthless and soul less coward made me feel like it was my fault, I lived in denial, and even now only my psychiatrist and my closest friend knows, plus also I feel guilty that if this guy harms some other child then its my fault since he was never caught because I didn't come forward.. Then five years ago my mother was diagnosed with N stage cancer, and watched her suffer a painful death, and less than a year later, one of my closest friends died after being involved in an accident, and now another of my friends passed away less than a week ago.
I have at times begun to loose my temper now very easily, and feeling suicidal, I feel like I am being targeted and the universe is punishing me by harming me and taking away people I love. My psychiatrist diagnosed me with PTSD.
Others who have been diagnosed with PTSD, do you feel the same, like its not fair, like why the hell is it you? .. I mean I am just confused all these emotions running though me.
I am a 21 year old guy, I am currently studying finance at a university in England. Well, about my childhood, I had a happy and normal childhood till I turned 13, when I was sexually abused by an employee, more specifically a driver, I didn't tell anyone then though this continued for over a month, because some how this ruthless and soul less coward made me feel like it was my fault, I lived in denial, and even now only my psychiatrist and my closest friend knows, plus also I feel guilty that if this guy harms some other child then its my fault since he was never caught because I didn't come forward.. Then five years ago my mother was diagnosed with N stage cancer, and watched her suffer a painful death, and less than a year later, one of my closest friends died after being involved in an accident, and now another of my friends passed away less than a week ago.
I have at times begun to loose my temper now very easily, and feeling suicidal, I feel like I am being targeted and the universe is punishing me by harming me and taking away people I love. My psychiatrist diagnosed me with PTSD.
Others who have been diagnosed with PTSD, do you feel the same, like its not fair, like why the hell is it you? .. I mean I am just confused all these emotions running though me.
