sweetbaker421
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I've been dating someone steadily for a few months and we've been really good friends for a few years. He is so incredibly supportive and I could not ask for a better person to have by my side while working on my PTSD. Relationships are never easy for me but I found someone who wants to work together to find what works for us. But I'm in need of some advice and guidance because I really struggle whenever we are around his friends, it takes me a while to open up and to be myself. We went out as a group and he introduced me to them recently and I became so insecure upon meeting one of his single girl friends that I convinced myself that he must have feelings for her and that he would rather be with her. I get so scared that it's not going workout between us, and in the moment I started to become cold and standoff-ish towards him like I have to protect myself.
I don't have any solid reasoning for why I felt that way, and when we had later talked about how I felt I was feeling so defeated and afraid, he was very quick to assure me he didn't have feelings for her and assured me we could figure out and told me not to give up on what we have and that we could figure out a way to help me around his friends so I am comfortable.
I'm afraid that I wont be able to shake that insecure feeling, and he doesn't always understand how I can't see how much I mean to him.
I have such a difficult time trusting and I can't tell if it was my PTSD putting these thoughts in my head that he had feelings for her because I feel so unlovable.
I'm wondering if anyone else ever experiences anything like this or can relate to me. Any and all advice or sharing of a similar situation is greatly appreciated. <3
I don't have any solid reasoning for why I felt that way, and when we had later talked about how I felt I was feeling so defeated and afraid, he was very quick to assure me he didn't have feelings for her and assured me we could figure out and told me not to give up on what we have and that we could figure out a way to help me around his friends so I am comfortable.
I'm afraid that I wont be able to shake that insecure feeling, and he doesn't always understand how I can't see how much I mean to him.
I have such a difficult time trusting and I can't tell if it was my PTSD putting these thoughts in my head that he had feelings for her because I feel so unlovable.
I'm wondering if anyone else ever experiences anything like this or can relate to me. Any and all advice or sharing of a similar situation is greatly appreciated. <3
