Is there any type of therapy or conference designed for Executive Leaders?
While I don't have frequent PTSD symptoms, when I do, it's not pretty. In fact, it's really unprofessional given my CEO-type position. Can you imagine the head honcho break down?! And....on top of that, I'm ADHD so I can come across scattered and emotional. Ugh. Those are qualities that people don't want in a leader.
My PTSD issues are triggered by men of authority (i.e. board of directors, CEO of management company).
My experience: 2 year period of time where I tied down and raped, shocked, and physical acts to make me fear for my life (i.e. dangled off balcony, pushed off an ocean pier but caught me, smother me with a pillow, threatened to kill me). Mom expected me to "suck it up" and reminded me often that she lost the love of her life because of me.
I have no support system family-wise. I'm not close to my mom. My husband doesn't want to talk about it. My kids know but we don't really talk about it.
Most would have turned to drugs or suicide (I was at that point before). In 5th grade, I learned to read (finally) but I was always significantly behind in school. My mom wasn't "present" so I missed 40-60 days of school a year to babysit my little sisters. In 8th grade, I somehow made the honor roll (probably because I started attending school regularly). The pride I felt when various teachers congratulated me was such a "high" that I turned to academics. I now have 3 college degrees because every time I hit a low that I can't pull myself out of, I set a huge goal and attain it (i.e. degree, promotion). So, I've worked hard to get where I'm at. I don't want to lose what I've accomplished because my PTSD issues are making people question my leadership abilities.
I'm such an awkward person because of the experiences that I've had that I often have to think about what "normal" is when I react to situations.
So, I need help managing my PTSD symptoms, helping me deal with my awkward issues (that are related to my experiences), and managing my ADHD issues.
Anyone know of a therapy conference for executive leaders?
While I don't have frequent PTSD symptoms, when I do, it's not pretty. In fact, it's really unprofessional given my CEO-type position. Can you imagine the head honcho break down?! And....on top of that, I'm ADHD so I can come across scattered and emotional. Ugh. Those are qualities that people don't want in a leader.
My PTSD issues are triggered by men of authority (i.e. board of directors, CEO of management company).
My experience: 2 year period of time where I tied down and raped, shocked, and physical acts to make me fear for my life (i.e. dangled off balcony, pushed off an ocean pier but caught me, smother me with a pillow, threatened to kill me). Mom expected me to "suck it up" and reminded me often that she lost the love of her life because of me.
I have no support system family-wise. I'm not close to my mom. My husband doesn't want to talk about it. My kids know but we don't really talk about it.
Most would have turned to drugs or suicide (I was at that point before). In 5th grade, I learned to read (finally) but I was always significantly behind in school. My mom wasn't "present" so I missed 40-60 days of school a year to babysit my little sisters. In 8th grade, I somehow made the honor roll (probably because I started attending school regularly). The pride I felt when various teachers congratulated me was such a "high" that I turned to academics. I now have 3 college degrees because every time I hit a low that I can't pull myself out of, I set a huge goal and attain it (i.e. degree, promotion). So, I've worked hard to get where I'm at. I don't want to lose what I've accomplished because my PTSD issues are making people question my leadership abilities.
I'm such an awkward person because of the experiences that I've had that I often have to think about what "normal" is when I react to situations.
So, I need help managing my PTSD symptoms, helping me deal with my awkward issues (that are related to my experiences), and managing my ADHD issues.
Anyone know of a therapy conference for executive leaders?