If I am only allowed 4 episodes a week can I have mine like this then,
1) Monday 5am until Wednesday midnight, (then some sleep with only mild nightmares)??
2) Thursday 3am until Thursday 10pm (short one this time as I am still shattered from not sleeping between the start and finish of number 1) ??
3) Friday 8am until Saturday 10am (one night long terror memory that wakes me up in a urine soaked bed as usual during last nights sleep) ?? Awake changing the bed for an hour.
4) Saturday 5pm until Monday 1am (then a few hours light doze as I try and break the cycle of insomnia.
My questions of this Mental Health Unit are these ??
1) Would they like to accompany me during this time, being awake constantly and experiencing all the emotional and physical symptoms I experience on a weekly basis?? (and yes, they would have to be prepared for all the muscle tremors, trauma memories that make me shudder and cry at a seconds notice.
2) They would be expected to lay in that Urine soaked bed for those three hours as well, then they will have to be prepared for the embarassment and paranoia that they smell of urine all the time, and the added financial burden of having to do the laundry so many times, ??
I wish I could invent a simulator for these people as well, you know like a virtual reality one, with smells and noises, oppressive feelings of impending death all the time ??
I could give people the whole "What it's like to live with PTSD constantly experience) Hmm now then, I could market these machines, $3000 a piece, then I could make sure that they fully appreciate that what we experience is in fact not just an emotion that can be shrugged off like a few rain drops but it is the real deal and not a normal simulator experience of "What would it be like to fly a jet fighter or racing car experience".
Maybe if people could, then the world would be a happier place and I would be a rich man,