Question Of Hospitalization

[Morphius]

Hi guys. I'm hoping for some insight. Here's the thing. I have DID as well as episodes of severe dissociation. I don't know if this is one of the symptoms of either, but there are moments of temporary improvements. The other day, my T and I were discussing me going into a hospital for one month so I could, for now, be in a safe environment wherein there would be consistent therapy and I'd be away from home for a while to clear my head. Before our discussion, each night, I'd cry out of depression or loneliness.

It was not a complete personality switch but during our session, while my T was giving me info on different inpatient treatment centers, I felt one of my personalities resurface. It was an awful feeling.

Now, I'm doing fine. I'm socializing more, I'm going to my first group tomorrow, etc. I'm just wondering why there was a sudden change after the sudden appearance of my other personality in front of my T the other day. Being that I'm doing fine now, it seems, I'm not sure that a hospital is needed for me. On the other hand, I'm sort of wondering if all of this "improvement" is part of another personalty that's resurfacing as a way of keeping me out of a treatment center so once that's out of the question, I'll get worse again. Or, am I actually doing better? I'm curious if anyone else with a personality disorder experience sudden improvement or an alter coming out when they were about to be hospitalized and then got worse after the so-called improvement so the hospital would be taken out of the equation?

 

[Powder]

Couple of things. But I don't have a diagnosis of DID or DDNOS, but those who know me best are aware of switching, as am I.

So, One, yes, once I did have a different personality that I have No other experience of come to front and heard my voice change to a lower octave, and use excessive aggression to defend me from a perceived emotional attack or manipulation from the T. with a transference problem. The T. was not skilled enough to perceive it and I was not comfortable enough with the new T. to admit that I felt a dramatic change in my personality without any control or knowledge of what it was about to say.

My personalities are so well blended that those not close to me do not perceive any switching. I am able to remember most of what happens, even if I am not in control of what happens. I am able to wrest control back fairly quickly as well, so I am not sure I would ever qualify as DID. I do have a lot of the inner experiences reported, such as hearing a conversation in my head, but only upon waking, when semi-conscious, or during extreme flashbacks, which could be alters coming forward and having a flashback.

Two, group therapy is ill-advised for DID. If your T. put you into a group for DID, then please get a second opinion or if your T. doesn't know you have DID, you need to be up front about the diagnosis. I have read repeatedly that Dissociative Disorders and group therapy are counter-productive and DID patients do not benefit at all, and actually do damage to themselves, in a group format.

I hope you find something helpful in my post, but if not, please feel free to counter point or clarify anything that I may have misunderstood from your post. I don't think I've met you on the forum, so welcome, and as I say, I may have misread since I am new to your situation.

Cheers,

Muse

 

[Morphius]

There's lots of helpfulness in your response. Thanks so much for your post. Can I ask... why is DID and groups for such ill-advised? Is there a reason for it? I would agree, but I'm just wondering if there are examples of why so I could better understand. My T does know I have it but still advised it. I'm just wondering before I end up going tomorrow maybe an example of why it'd be bad. Is it that these alters find a way if manipulating groups in such way where they'd play "I'm recovered" and then it gets worse suddenly, or something much different?