Quitting

[OKRADLAK]

I am quitting.

I know I may regret it but I cannot being to think of every seeing anyone there again. It is HELL.

I lost a lot of weight and a lot of sanity and WHY? Why???????? Why did I I ever think I could handle this? Move on?

I hate my supervisor for being nice to me. It made me confused. F him and I can't wait to leave this area.

Failed again and glad I did.

So my commentary on work is over.

I QUIT.

 

[Sazza]

All I can really say is you have to do What is right for you. You know your limitations and when you have reached that point. Is there no way you can take bit time off rather than being hasty, just a thought as only you know how much you can
Tolerate. Sometimes though we have to walk Away for sake our health.

I'm sorry things haven't and aren't going your way !!!

 

[BrandyU]

I'm just asking for myself. Is walking away okay? Confrontation and intimidation are a daily part of my job and I've been depressed and anxious since I started a year ago. Knowing that I have PTSD do I just need to accept that this is something I can not tolerate? Or can therapy and drugs make it better?

 

[Srain]

((((((((hugs))))))))
Just take care of yourself, always. I'm behind you no matter what you decide you need to do.
peace and thinking of you,
Rain

 

[Nighthawk]

I'm with Srain. Take care of you ((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))

 

[maddog]

As others have said, all that matters is that you're doing right by you, and that you take care of yourself. Keep talking to us...

Maddog

 

[James B.]

no shame in simply leaving the playing field if you feel it best...

 

[Ricanoland]

I just had a meeting yesterday at my lawyers office where they told me it could take me another 5 to 10 years to be able to work full time again without limitations. I think I can understand your pain. I had a few part time jobs last year that were hell for me. I left crying most days. I say if you want to leave do it. Dont listen to anyone but yourself when it comes to your limits. Doctors, and Therapist have to listen to you to the help you, so you also need to listen to you to help you.

 

[KP the nut]

(((OKRADLAK)))

It is a hard decision to come to and I admire you for it.

I fought to keep my job and lost. I now thank the lord I did. I was completely unaware of the stress and pressure I was under - and I loved what I was doing.

Since finishing work at the end of May, I have made more progress in managing my symptoms than I would have thought possible. I am a different person.

I wish you peace, I like others am behind you all the way.

 

[CiaOk]

Being in the wrong working environment is not healthy and although the future may seem uncertain, when one door closes it usually follows that another one opens, so heres me wishing you a better future.

 

[windwoman]

I had a career that I loved and was passionate about. I worked in an environment that kept my work new and exciting. Then I got a new supervisor who triggered me every time I saw him. I would just shut down, It was like I turned to stone.
I would respond to what he was saying only in my head and my responses were not appropriate to be verbalized. I literally could not make a sound come out of my mouth. I ended up with chest pains so bad I was hospitalized for a possible heart attack. It wasn't a heart attack, but after I got out of the hospital, I could never seem to get well. I finally had to resign my position because I literally couldn't get out of bed. 2 years later I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia. I still miss my work so very much, but I was living in a constant flashback. I am still unable to even consider going back to work of any kind.

Leaving a job is always a hard choice, but i do believe my situation was killing me.

 

[lil_fighter]

I applaud anyone who is strong enough to put their own needs first and to leave a job that is making them miserable. I know that often it is not solely a job that makes you miserable - unless workplace bullying is going on, but that having PTSD whilst working within a stressful job can make life very tough. Waking up in the morning with a feeling of dread or even being in tears as you get ready for work..are clear signs that there is something not right and that it is time to leave if that is what you want to do.

It is a positive step forward and should not be seen as a bad move..even if financially for a while it is not ideal, psychologically and for our own sanity it is the best thing we've ever done.

I also believe that there are things that can help PTSD in a positive way, for me it's my involvement in my youth theatre which is probably the only thing I have ever stuck at willingly and enjoyed. It motivates me and has certainly helped me through dark times. It is now one year since I first joined and prior to that I have had a few months here, a few months there with most things I have done.. I made a lot of bad choices that came from having a low self esteem. My youth theatre is only a hobby but the projects I have been involved in have been far more interesting than most of the work I have done. Im 23 and plan to go to university but it has taken me a while to choose the right career path, I am now 100% certain of what I want to do and I am glad about that too.

My current job is cr*p, the pay is cr*p and I could do so much better yet I feel guilty and bad and it's become a huge issue as if my life depends on it and I have been so anxious about handing my notice in..to-ing and fro-ing, never knowing whether I should or not...but hey, if you're crying in the toilets at work..there's a problem, right?

CiOk, you said it perfectly :)

when one door closes it usually follows that another one opens