Pyronsbabygrl34
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Hi I am 34, a mother of two, a wife of a sailor and I am currently battling PTSD. I was sexual assaulted 5 years ago by a military recruiter in my home while my children were at school. For 5 years I've lived in fear, anxiety has overcome my life, I lost all of me, became suicidial and very depressed, also became dependent on narcotics to "ease" the pain. I managed to get help for my dependency and did my best to live a "normal" life. Instead I was dying inside and couldn't move forward. It wasn't until a few months ago my husband left for deployment and I suffered a huge trigger that brought it out full force. I made a huge decision to go to a therapist, to my surprise it was the best choice I've ever made. Getting my foot in the door was terrifying but I did it for myself, my husband and children. I'm two months in and although I have a ways to go I'm making healthy progress. I am currently doing the EMDR and it has been my saving grace. I look forward to my sessions, even if they are rough, I know I can beat this. It's a long road but a road I know I deserve to travel, I didn't ask for this however it happened and I refuse up allow it to define me. I read a lot of self help books, do a lot of meditation and natural coping skills for anxiety and I also write every day no matter how good or bad. It has helped a lot. I know the roads going to be rough but I made the first step and that is the hardest.
