Cerulean Synapse
Bronze Member
The day before my birthday, which was October 6th by the way, I woke up went to the bathroom and was looking out of the window. I saw that our neighbor was having a huge birthday bash for some kid. I looked to see that one of the people looked like his mother. I shouted from the bathroom to tell him "doesn't that look like your mother?" He goes"Nah too broad in the shoulders. My mother has a narrower frame than that." And then I stared closer at the party and I started to recognize people from my past bad people, and then the woman who I pointed out earlier.
It was my exes mother. I know usually this would not be so traumatizing, but the fact is, my ex abandon me in the hospital at my weakest with no closure and left me with nothing. I never saw him again. He maxed out all my credit cards and so the story goes, I found out from therapy and one of my alters, that he actually was into pornography, not the porn you think about, but child porn. And that traumatized us at one point. I guess him leaving us was for the best.
But when I saw all of my exes family there, I wonder if that re-traumatized me, because I instantly dissociated.
It was my exes mother. I know usually this would not be so traumatizing, but the fact is, my ex abandon me in the hospital at my weakest with no closure and left me with nothing. I never saw him again. He maxed out all my credit cards and so the story goes, I found out from therapy and one of my alters, that he actually was into pornography, not the porn you think about, but child porn. And that traumatized us at one point. I guess him leaving us was for the best.
But when I saw all of my exes family there, I wonder if that re-traumatized me, because I instantly dissociated.
