Really A Difference

[sonicwhite]

Ok so not being on gabapentin I can tell a big difference in not having the same type of what seemed to be demonic attack. Like my dreams are still there but less of an impact. I'm amazed at the mental cravings I have with this. But I know if I pick it up again I prolly won't be able to stop.


It's so funny how something like this was entertaining demons thus making warfare in my mind constantly. I really don't like the fact that I have cravings but I guess that's what NA is for. I am going to keep wrestling with this until I win.

I must say it wasn't as bad as I thought it would of been.

 

[Silver.]

So sorry to hear you have had trouble with gabapentin, keep up with the NA and the spirit that you are going to win this battle. That's strength I see right there. x

 

[lostforgottensoul]

I really don't like the fact that I have cravings but I guess that's what NA is for. I am going to keep wrestling with this until I win.

You must understand that you dont stop having cravings. Ive been clean off coke & crack around 12 yrs and still crave it at times and would 100% do it if in front of me. The cravings do lesson over time but you MUST change everything. Your geographic location (or I did which gave me a chance), your contacts, your friends, everything.

And always remember that addict mind will always be there, most times laying dormat (eventually with time) but then a hard day happens and WAM, you are fighting it like its day one of being clean.

There are things that do stop with time such as dreams of using.

I am proud of you and i know you can do this!

ETA: Oh yes, and NA. I never went as i fear people but NA has been a godsend to some ive talked to. When you want to use, go find an NA meeting and go there instead. Gain a sponsor and call them instead. Etc.