Reoccurring Nightmate That Is Getting To Me.

[Elena Farely]

Recently, I was phoned by my oldest sister. She had a dress that the man who basically played the father figure in my life bought me when I was a kid. I have ZERO memories about this dress. No idea I actually had one, that he had bought it for me.. That my mother just gave it away to my oldest sister for her... Rabid... children to play with. I got it back and I just felt something familiar about the dress. I didn't realise until a week ago where I remembered it from. The younger me is always and still is wearing it in my nightmares. It sits hanging from the cupboard door now. It doesn't matter where I put it, it'll always be in my dreams. And I cannot bring myself to throw it away. The man who gave it to me was there when I basically needed a father like figure. He brought me gifts where I was violently sick and my mother left me with said sister and the rest of my family so she could go see the fireworks and drink in Sydney.