Rescue fantasy

[EmmaOwl]

my response was short and to the point and not as clear as I thought.

You're fine! It cleared up quickly anyway :)

 

[BoN-bOn]

I think it's all a part of the disassociation part of PTSD...I used to have a "pretend family" when I was a little girl. I found comfort from this pretend family that I didn't receive from my own. It's a method of survival!! I see nothing wrong with having fantasies like this as an adult, as long as it gives you some kind of comfort & doesn't make you more depressed.

 

[Bristol]

I think it's all a part of the disassociation part of PTSD...I used to have a "pretend family" when I w...

Yea i did that too, imaginary big brothers and everything. I think thats the thing at the moment it making life harder for me need to find a way out of it

 

[EmmaOwl]

Harry Potter popped into my head. Harry Potter lives in a closet under the stairs of his aunt&uncle's house, is pretty much starved - food-wise AND attention-wise...but at age 11 he finds out he's a famous wizard. Best comeback of all time :) Harry gets to spend most of the year at his magical school, which is still pretty cool even when it's dangerous, and when he IS stuck at his relatives' house for brief periods of time, they're scared into treating him at least a little bit better.

Awesome rescue fantasy.

It's a wonder he doesn't show more damage from those 10 years, being not just unloved but actively scorned, emotionally and physical abused, spent at the Dursleys' house. He's actually remarkably optimistic. Not everyone would recover so well, even with the absolutely amazing new information about his identity! I guess this feeds into the "children are more resilient" idea.

 

[EmmaOwl]

imaginary big brothers

I had a real big brother :( He..did stuff when I was a toddler... I forgot about it; we became good friends; I remembered; we stayed friends and he was contrite about what he had done when he was pretty young, and he was supportive of me. He even offered to go to therapy, if it made me feel better. He got married and stayed supportive for a while. Then he stopped. He started to resent me. I asked him to make good on his therapy promise and he said, "I don't need that anymore." Totally overlooking the fact that it was at least as much for my benefit as for his. I WAS rescued, but then dumped all over again.

I need to invent a whole new rescue scenario.

Sorry. I'm continuing to feel very very bitter. I dunno why. Holidays? Post-election slump? General moodiness and up-and-down of anxiety and bipolar II? This doesn't belong here, does it? Sorry again.

 

[Bristol]

I had a real big brother :( He..did stuff when I was a toddler... I forgot about it; we became good f...

Dont say sorry, it sucks that people closest to us let us down in the end, im just sorry theres nothing i can say or do to help

 

[EmmaOwl]

nothing i can say or do to help

Hey, you just helped. Thank you. I'm not all squisshy happy but thanks for reading and responding. It means a lot - I can be unkind and pretty thoughtless of others, and you are here, answering me anyway. Ty.

 

[Bristol]

Hey, you just helped. Thank you. I'm not all squisshy happy but thanks for reading and responding. It...

Anytime we got to stick together :) if you ever want someone to talk to give me a kick

 

[EmmaOwl]

I like your profile photo! I'll go with that as a positive thought. I"m guessing it's the other side of the ocean, but it reminds me of the coast of Maine, I've been on vacation there. Beautiful.
I will keep your offer of giving you "a kick" in mind. :) Thanks again and yes to sticking together.

 

[Bristol]

I like your profile photo! I'll go with that as a positive thought. I"m guessing it's the other side o...

Its like 10 minutes walk from my house, i should appreciate it more!

 

[angel2write]

Sometimes all I need is a chance to be heard. Even have someone respond to my writing in a thread can be, like, enough validation to live on for one more day!! Lol. Guess I'm not very picky.

Hey, you just helped. Thank you. I'm not all squisshy happy but thanks for reading and responding. It...

There's been a lot of times that people on this forum have helped me a lot just by being there and talking back.

 

[NoWhereKnowWhere]

When I was little I had this fantasy that I would be rescued. The rescuer was me grown up I went back in time to rescue myself. That developed into an imaginary friend of myself. I played and talked with myself and always knew what to say and how to love me. Even then the only one I could imagine to be reliable enough was myself.

My problem now is I rely on myself too much. I am the only one trustworthy and reliable. I've really struggled letting anyone in. But I've saved myself more hurt and pain than I can possibly imagine. And now I imagine I'm playing with and taking to child me I really could be reaching back and saving child (figuratively inner child) me pain and suffering. I don't know if this is even healthy I should talk to T about it.