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[Mockingbird]

I get that way too...

I was triggered a week ago, and I still feel the effects. I hope you have someone close that can help you. If not, ask for help if you can... one day at a time. It's miserable, but that's what it takes.

 

[GrayOwl]

Hi T2.
So sorry to hear you're hurting.
Sending you a :hug: if that's ok?
And sending anything positive I can that helps you to get through.
And a smile:joyful:.
I have to interact with two abusers this weekend. I'm not doing well with that. I want this weekend and holiday to be over and gone too.

 

[Friday]

The benefit to really f*cking awful anniversaries? Is that they end. They have a finite time limit. If it's this day, this weekend? Then this day or this weekend may feel like forever, but they're not. Get through 1 more day, 1 more weekend, and then the anniversary is behind you.

 

[Killashandra]

The benefit to really f*cking awful anniversaries? Is that they end. They have a finite time limit....

I need to take that on board. Thanks.

 

[ladee]

You are saying you can't, but you are... and we understand 'jumbled' here. You reached out for help and we are hearing you. That is a lot for your brain to sort out... but you can and you are. You are so much stronger than you think you are... it is important for you to take a few minutes to do some deep breathing.. sometimes I hate hearing this... but it works... every single time. Doesn't take the pain or the memories away, but it does help calm us down... you are doing this... gentle hugs for the battle you are fighting and the one you will win..

 

[Meh]

I'm having thoughts, too. Also, can't/won't do anything due to my son needing me. Am lost. This sucks. Hope you're ok. Stay strong.

 

[Celtic]

Im having thoughts! :( I won't take action. My kids need me...but the child inside me wants to...

I feel your pain and I made the same choice just recently. I chose to stay for my kids because I did not want them, to carry any of this with them. I know this pain well. it will burn out after awhile. I am sorry for the child inside you. remember and hold on to the courage it took to post this and reach out. Its bad right now, but it won't stay this bad. it will change, not to perfect, we are realistic, but it will change. Just ask and we here for you.

Celtic

 

[Celtic]

I'm having thoughts, too. Also, can't/won't do anything due to my son needing me. Am lost. This sucks. Hope...

Meh,

how amazing you are to reach out to T2 when you are going through something as heavy. I am sending many love and blessings to you if you accept them. The strength I see on this forum is awe inspiring.

Celtic