I'm sorry at your lowest, you were shown the door. But it speaks to your desire to heal what you can, that you are here and trying to find your way, find your voice, and allow others to support you thru the really hard times.
There is peace to be felt. There is healing, not without pain, but still, there will be healing. And self trust and 'fitting inside your own skin'.I use that term a lot here. To me, that means we aren't fractured and all the things stolen from us have been restored even stronger by the hard work we do. We trust ourselves. We take baby steps to heal. We learn that we matter in this world. We have a voice and use it. We have solid boundaries and uphold them. We become more than we ever imagined.
You won't be shown the door here.
And to let you know, we do laugh here too. Under 'Social', you will find things that make you smile, even laugh out loud sometimes. We are more than just work work work. One of my favorites is ' You know you have PTSD when.....'.
Hope you have found a safe place to lay your pain. We are listening.