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I've posted a few times about the same issue... need some feedback. As some of you already know, I have a lot of renovations going on in my home right now. Because of past trauma, this poses as a huge stressor me. I'm very much afraid to have strangers in my home. I didn't count on several confrontations that have come my way. There have been meetings with contractors who had an agenda purely for bullying purposes. - sometimes high anxiety can be channeled into a good thing. My threshold is down to nothing left.
The biggest problem now, is that even though I know that no one is out to "get me", even a local male grocer has become a stressor. I seem to be falling apart every time I'm near a man at all. I've become suspicious of everyone. The renovations will continue for at least the rest of this week if not into next. It's already been 2 full weeks.
I'm tired in everyway. Tired of fighting. I have lots of coping tools and have always been very good at using them to lower anxiety levels, but it's just not working anymore - or I should say, not this time.
I've been with the same Therapist now for 4 years and he's always been my biggest cheering squad. I've probably been one of his most challenging and stubborn clients, but realistically, there's never yet been anything I've brought to the table that he hasn't been able to respond to. I've brought quite a few things to keep his life interesting.
He's out of town and so I'm not seeing him until next Thursday. He is keeping track of me though while away. I have no doubt that he'll be in touch soon... texting or even a phone call/video chat and I'm actually afraid of him. Probably because he's simply a man. When things are going badly, that's usually when I retreat from any communication. I don't want his name to pop up on a text or video chat. So glad I don't have to see him this week.
I don't know what to do. Has anyone ever had this problem before? Suggestions? Need help badly!
I've posted a few times about the same issue... need some feedback. As some of you already know, I have a lot of renovations going on in my home right now. Because of past trauma, this poses as a huge stressor me. I'm very much afraid to have strangers in my home. I didn't count on several confrontations that have come my way. There have been meetings with contractors who had an agenda purely for bullying purposes. - sometimes high anxiety can be channeled into a good thing. My threshold is down to nothing left.
The biggest problem now, is that even though I know that no one is out to "get me", even a local male grocer has become a stressor. I seem to be falling apart every time I'm near a man at all. I've become suspicious of everyone. The renovations will continue for at least the rest of this week if not into next. It's already been 2 full weeks.
I'm tired in everyway. Tired of fighting. I have lots of coping tools and have always been very good at using them to lower anxiety levels, but it's just not working anymore - or I should say, not this time.
I've been with the same Therapist now for 4 years and he's always been my biggest cheering squad. I've probably been one of his most challenging and stubborn clients, but realistically, there's never yet been anything I've brought to the table that he hasn't been able to respond to. I've brought quite a few things to keep his life interesting.
He's out of town and so I'm not seeing him until next Thursday. He is keeping track of me though while away. I have no doubt that he'll be in touch soon... texting or even a phone call/video chat and I'm actually afraid of him. Probably because he's simply a man. When things are going badly, that's usually when I retreat from any communication. I don't want his name to pop up on a text or video chat. So glad I don't have to see him this week.
I don't know what to do. Has anyone ever had this problem before? Suggestions? Need help badly!
