Scared

[Bookoffee]

I am having a hard time keeping in check with reality. A coworker became angry with me yesterday and it triggered me. All I can see is her yelling at me that she is sick of these, slamming her referral on her desk and yelling at me that she needs to take a walk. I am scared every second of my life. I can't leave my house.

 

[bell]

You can do it. Focus on your breath. Focus on your feet connecting with the ground. Focus on being present.

And not to sound hippie dippie, but everytime you say you "can't" you are reinforcing that belief, which is a belief, not a truth.

And most likely you are not scared "every" second. I spent the "majority" of my life disassociating, but not "all" of my life. I'm guessing there are moments of reprieve, even if they are for brief seconds. Focus on those seconds.

First move, focus on what is truth, vs. what your brain is trying to convince you of. Even if that means saying to yourself, "this table is made of wood, it is 2014, this coffee is hot." Focus on what truly is first.

 

[arfie]

I don't even know your co-worker's name and she just scared sensibility out of me, Bookoffee!!! Can I come hide under the couch with you?

Were you afraid to go out before the firecracker landed on your desk? An isolated incident works differently than a pre-established pattern in my own mind. Don't know which is harder, but it makes a difference in how I handle it.

 

[Bookoffee]

Thank you. I don't remember writing this thread. I broke down I am still in a haze. I will try to come back later to read again. I I am having a hard time understanding

 

[Notsowild]

I'm so sorry for what you are going through. I can definetly understand. I've been dealing with a verbally abusive boss for over a year now. Been trying to get fair treatment from her but its not working out so well. No great answer for you, I've tried a lot of different avenues to get rid of her. But she's still there and I'm written up as a violent person. Life's not fair. One day one day