InsideAWord
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I had to see a counselor at my university because my mother (whose insurance I'm under) didn't want me to go see a therapist under her insurance because she kept threatening that the insurance company wouldn't cover it after so many visits.
So, I had my last therapy meeting and I'm a bit disappointed.
My counselor was pretty good -- she had been a therapist at a prison in my city so she understood where my trauma came from. But, now, I don't have a counselor or a therapist for the rest of the summer. I still see my psychiatrist, but as most of us know, psychiatrists are for one thing and therapists are for the other.
I enjoyed therapy because once a week I was able to unload and actually talk out some of my symptoms, whether it was dissociation, depersonalization, flashbacks, nightmares, night terrors, panic attacks, hyper-vigilance, some delusions, etc.
Yes, I've learned strategies that help me cope when triggers set me off, but I mostly used therapy to unload. My mother and sister refuse to hear anymore about some of the mental burdens I must endure daily... even though they'll demand to know why I'm in a bad mood one day despite the fact that I was probably encountering a lot of stress. So, usually, I just say that everything is fine and keep it in. But, every Wednesday I was able to talk about the things that were bothering me.
My psychiatrist encourages me to talk during our sessions, and she'll even engage in off-topic conversations with me that I'm knowledgeable about just to get me talking. But, I only see her once a month to refill my script since my state requires that I visit my psychiatrist whenever I have my script filled. Nevertheless, I always look forward to speaking with her.
But, now, I won't be able to unload my stress once a week. I'll have to figure out a different therapy for myself, or have a hard talk with my mother to allow me to continue therapy with an actual therapist that will require insurance. And, I don't think that conversation will end well.
Sure, I have the forum, but sometimes I feel like I infuriate people on here. Honestly, I sometimes feel like many people on here dislike me or don't take me seriously.
Any advice?
So, I had my last therapy meeting and I'm a bit disappointed.
My counselor was pretty good -- she had been a therapist at a prison in my city so she understood where my trauma came from. But, now, I don't have a counselor or a therapist for the rest of the summer. I still see my psychiatrist, but as most of us know, psychiatrists are for one thing and therapists are for the other.
I enjoyed therapy because once a week I was able to unload and actually talk out some of my symptoms, whether it was dissociation, depersonalization, flashbacks, nightmares, night terrors, panic attacks, hyper-vigilance, some delusions, etc.
Yes, I've learned strategies that help me cope when triggers set me off, but I mostly used therapy to unload. My mother and sister refuse to hear anymore about some of the mental burdens I must endure daily... even though they'll demand to know why I'm in a bad mood one day despite the fact that I was probably encountering a lot of stress. So, usually, I just say that everything is fine and keep it in. But, every Wednesday I was able to talk about the things that were bothering me.
My psychiatrist encourages me to talk during our sessions, and she'll even engage in off-topic conversations with me that I'm knowledgeable about just to get me talking. But, I only see her once a month to refill my script since my state requires that I visit my psychiatrist whenever I have my script filled. Nevertheless, I always look forward to speaking with her.
But, now, I won't be able to unload my stress once a week. I'll have to figure out a different therapy for myself, or have a hard talk with my mother to allow me to continue therapy with an actual therapist that will require insurance. And, I don't think that conversation will end well.
Sure, I have the forum, but sometimes I feel like I infuriate people on here. Honestly, I sometimes feel like many people on here dislike me or don't take me seriously.
Any advice?