Self Harm, Killing Feelings Of Needing Support From Anyone

[Hope4Now]

Hi there, Chava. I'm hearing you. Hoping you can find a way to feel some real compassion for all these parts of yourself that are working so hard to keep you surviving, to keep you from being overwhelmed. Not sure if you would find it of any comfort to read this...a kind of alternative way of thinking about our inner systems (http://www.selfleadership.org/about-internal-family-systems.html ...especially the second section about managers, exiles, and firefighters). This is the kind of therapy that I have been working at. I keep going back to re-read the stuff on this website...and to re-learn over and over again that all the parts of us are working really hard to keep us from overwhelm from the past.

Hoping you can find some gentle ways to let off some of the stress that's built up.

 

[Chava]

Thanks @Hope4Now ...last night was too insane, but glad I didn't quit therapy (wth), had a pretty good appointment today and helped take the edge of the whole body rattling/buzzing bad energy (somatic experiencing type work). The stress eats my body alive. Now I feel like I can sort of access something helpful or nice connections, like the pets for now. Body hurts but insane intensity is subdued...and glad therapy appointment felt better than burning myself (I regret that but it was very mixed up in my body). Thanks for the link...I've come across these descriptions before...relate lots to exiles and firefighters! My manager parts are exhausted.

 

[Hope4Now]

So glad to read your post. So glad therapy appointment helped.

relate lots to exiles and firefighters! My manager parts are exhausted.

Me too.