Self Injury By Hitting?

[Lovu]

It's an anonymous forum so it gives anonymous names to everyone who posts in the forum.

 

[Icus]

oh, ok. I didn't know that. I have never posted thru an anonymous forum.

 

[Uli]

When I was 11-12, I used to slam my body into lockers, hit myself, pinch myself until I bled, anything that would hurt me.

Looking back, I was going through puberty, I was in a terribly awkward phase (the beginning anyway), and someone who was my entire World was dying and I couldn't handle it. My parents never talked to me about it. They just shrugged it off and told me to accept it...so I never had a way to cope.

When I'm severely stressed out, I go into psychogenic seizures. I slam my head repeatedly, HARD, scream, flail around. It's almost humorous but...it's not.

 

[Esu]

I have slapped myself, but it's not something I do (hitting myself) frequently. My weapon of choice is acting out sexual abuse on myself, so its more psychological abuse than physical, if that makes sense....But recently I went too far and have caused physical damage - it will heal, but I feel pretty down about it. Even though I want to punish myself, I hadn't thought I could go that far, but now I have, will I want to push my boundaries even more?

 

[Efaha]

I did it today. Badly. I don't know what to do. I hit my leg so hard it is hard to walk. The leg is swollen. Dear God, what have I done to myself.