Severe Dissociation, Numbness,deja Vu, Fake

[AnxiousSapphire]

Hello, I'm new here. Posted a little introduction in the newbies thread.

With PTSD I have been told I suffer from severe Disscoiation depersonilation/Derelization.

I guess I'm just looking for a little reassurance as I have a lot of things going on that scare me, make my anxiety worse and increases the dissociation.

Feeling emotionally numb
Feeling like my body is Numb can't really feel my body at all to touch,pain, heat. Just feel like my whole body isint there and I I'm weightless.
Everything feels and looks like a dream, when I'm outside especially everything looks like a video game like colours and places look like graphics.
Deja vu major Deja vu! As in it doesn't go away, everything I see, do, hear, think etc is like it's been done before.
Major insomnia I wake up every hour and have done for 10 months.

 

[BlueOrange]

That sounds like a really unpleasant set of symptoms. You're diagnosed & therefore seeing a therapist, so that's something good. I see from your intro post that you want to be helpful to others - many of us find that easier than helping ourselves, and it's a great way to gently come to an understanding that people who have these symptoms can be good people.

Back when I was first diagnosed, I used to talk about having 'mental patient days', days when I couldn't leave the house, couldn't make words in my mind, spent hours trying to cope with crippling levels of pain, and would lose my temper at the slightest disturbance in my routine.

These days a 'bad day' is one where I feel really tired, and don't get much done. Please have a look in the 'Achievements and Successes' forum - I tend to find it reassuring.

 

[AnxiousSapphire]

That sounds like a really unpleasant set of symptoms. You're diagnosed & therefore seeing a therapi...

Hi blue orange thankyou for taking the time to reply to me.

Yeah it is a lot easier to give other people advice and try to help others than it is your self sometimes.

I'm sorry to hear about your bad days, but that you have found recovery and success stories helpful, I will take a look at that thread :-)