Sufferer Severe Emotional Abuse, Deafness, Depression Cptsd

[KatB]

Hello Kim. I am a late bloomer, but i am surprised to know how much I can relate to your story.

I don't have deafness. But I know what severe cptsd and depression feels like. Your experience brings up the emotional and psychological abuse i have endured during my late teens up to now. I can put myself in your shoes because i know the denial that comes from my family, the self-hatred and anger, and the deep, what feels like never-ending emptiness in the heart.

It's enraging and frustrating to be the ond who has to confront and control this monster, meanwhile those who afflict it on us live with denial and do it because I'm the one to blame for their mistakes and faults, damn it. Its like i live in the body of a person who i don't recognize and can't figure out what to do next.... i don't know what more else to say.

 

[ms spock]

Welcome to the Forum who am i kim!

I find the complex trauma, depression and disassocation difficult to deal with. I wish you well.

 

[RockyMtnHigh]

Welcome from another sufferer and someone who has experinced hearing loss. Wishing you peace.

 

[anthony]

Welcome to PTSD Forum.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Hi and welcome to the forum. It is nice to meet you.

 

[Yugogypsy]

Hi,

Several months ago, I joined this myptsd forum. I'm DEAF with American Sign Language (ASL) as my first language and English as my second language. I've just been diagnosed with PTSD recently after the final traumatic experience (repeated throughout my life and the last one was the final straw that broke the camel's back). I noticed that you made your last posting two years ago and wasn't sure if you're still around. If you google myptsd under yugogypsy, you'll find my information that I have shared.

Hope we can connect sometime soon?

 

[Yugogypsy]

By the way, I didn't have a "hearing loss"... I was born with it and how can I "lose" it when I never had it in the first place. Smiling... I get annoyed about the lumping of "hearing loss" with those who are born with it and never really lost it.

 

[Yugogypsy]

At this point in my life crisis, I'm going to rip somebody's heart out with a spoon and when I'm gone, I'm going to haunt them. I'll be standing at the death's door this friday in front of armies of hearing people who are ignorant with their own negative attitudes about the Deaf. Consider a foot soldier lost after fighting the hearing world for too long. Some have ripped up my life, tore my heart out especially after my teaching Deaf culture and ASL for MANY years. I don't trust them.

 

[ms spock]

@Yugogypsy I am concerned to read you are having such a hard time.

@who am i kim used to hang out with us in the old chat room. I haven't seen her in ages. I hope she comes back one day.

 

[Lylanmina2]

Oops I fogot to say that Disasscoiation is a big part of my life too.

:cautious: who am i kim[/QUO...

Hello? This is September 2015, i found this on the internet. I'm deaf 49 year old male. I do have the same problem. My hearing family resent me, made my 80 year old mother to file restraining order and even worse, eviction. I am appaulled and tried for eight months to help and solve without any misunderstanding but it went out of control with thier resentment,years of frustration sudden blow up on my face. I have been abused verbally and with thier intellectual way of making me look stupid and useless. It went too far. Now I being shut out and forced out and no family support,none whatsover. They made sure all other relatives don't help me. I've spent eight months struggling for help from them, but no... they just want to get rid of me. Real sad huh? I'm not sure if anyone out there has the same probelm, being deaf and being resented from hearing family. This is the year of 2015, not on the old ages in the past. When they view deaf as dumb and mute. Shocking?! Yes, I'm one of them in the present, today. I'm about to be homeless with my only family I have left. My two dogs and my cats. No where to go. Anyone out there? Help me by contacting me. I sure need huge support. Thank you. RB
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