darkestnight
New Here
I am so fed up with this place! No one seems to care or give a $#!+ about me or any of the Veterans that are out there. It's all fine and dandy when people say support the troops and then turn their f'n backs on them. Jobs for Vets...Yeah, that's a joke. Everyday I meet another brother-in-arms whose is desperately trying to find work to support their family. Wives don't understand and their the ones that need the training to help cope with the crap that we have!
VA sucks and their stupid medicate the crap out of us and turn us all into vegetables or some zombie like state. Can't turn to VA, don't want the medication, been there done that and gained over 130 pounds...NO THANK YOU! There has to be another way! I keep trying to even go back to my faith but it seems that my heart and mind overtake me when I am not watching, blindsiding me into oblivion. Why! I love God and desperately love Jesus...Help me! Why is it that when I need someone to talk to, the only one that responds with love is my dog Bailey! Not my wife or anyone who knows me.
I have been trying to find suitable work for almost 6 years now, coming out of hell to get where I am...feels like I am still there! No one wants to hire a veteran musician. My business is not doing well...thought it was perfect, but apparently not...Can't seem to stay in school to literally save my life and family...Bombshells keep exploding all around me of crap that just keeps flowing. What can I do...is this life worth living anymore...my insurance is worth more to my family than I am able to provide...??? sigh...why won't anyone talk to me...feels like I am stranded and alone...I HATE THIS WORLD!!!
VA sucks and their stupid medicate the crap out of us and turn us all into vegetables or some zombie like state. Can't turn to VA, don't want the medication, been there done that and gained over 130 pounds...NO THANK YOU! There has to be another way! I keep trying to even go back to my faith but it seems that my heart and mind overtake me when I am not watching, blindsiding me into oblivion. Why! I love God and desperately love Jesus...Help me! Why is it that when I need someone to talk to, the only one that responds with love is my dog Bailey! Not my wife or anyone who knows me.
I have been trying to find suitable work for almost 6 years now, coming out of hell to get where I am...feels like I am still there! No one wants to hire a veteran musician. My business is not doing well...thought it was perfect, but apparently not...Can't seem to stay in school to literally save my life and family...Bombshells keep exploding all around me of crap that just keeps flowing. What can I do...is this life worth living anymore...my insurance is worth more to my family than I am able to provide...??? sigh...why won't anyone talk to me...feels like I am stranded and alone...I HATE THIS WORLD!!!
