I know exactly what you mean QL. It took me a long time before I was successful with my lists. At first, my list wouldn't even be complete till a few days after the day I was trying to organize, lol. Notes wouldn't be in any order, or written neatly on lines; they'd be trailing across, down, and upside down. I had to start out just figuring out a simple routine (didn't include everything) of 3-4 things to follow everyday. I would do other things, but as long as I kept writing those 3-4 things for each day, it gave me the practice I needed to build a more complex list later on.
I understand about jumping in the middle of things too. I have issues with my focus. I have about 20-30 minutes of warm up time before my focus can click into place, so I'll just jump into the middle of a book I want to read -- it really doesn't matter anyway, I won't take anything in till I've warmed up. When my focus finally does feel solid, I can then just start over from the beginning. I found that doing my warm-up book trick before I have to seriously do anything, can help me start at the beginning of anything with a logical linear focus.
It does take practice to find out your own personal tricks to staying on track. I was treated like an incapable flake my entire youth. When you are treated like a flake, you tend to believe them. Instead of them helping me (starting off small and building on it), they just insulted and made fun of me. Making a joke has its place sometimes, but not every darn day, and in every situation. It becomes a hinderance and a mental block for any creative idea that might be helpful.
I couldn't ever do it their way no matter how hard I tried, and didn't know there were other ways to do things till I was grown and on my own (and had to sink or swim). I'm proud of myself (after a long time of being ashamed) for finding my independence; but, it frustrates me that, since I don't follow a normal course for getting things done, I'm still seen as disfunctional. :cautious:
Sure, my lists and memory and focus tricks are my life line, but I found a way. It does take me twice as long to plan tomorrow as anyone else, but I've found I can be more productive than 'normal' I've known, because I take the time to pay attention to the details. I know where I failed in the past, and can plan for them now. I can't just sit my things any old place or I will lose them; so, I have a place for everything.
I can't just be spontaneous and leave the house without a written plan for where I'm going and what I am doing when I get there, or I will get lost and forget why I was in the car to begin with; but, I don't have a huge gas bill like those spontaneous people either. :p And I'm not in danger of being locked up again, as long as I follow my lists and plans and don't end up crying in a stranger's driveway asking where I am and how to get back home. Nope, not ever again (I hope).:rolleyes: