Should I Tell Him

[Upside Down Eagle]

I wrote him a different kind of letter yesterday night. Not an "OMG I love you" confession, but more of a "I was doing really bad, and you meant the world to me back then", kind of confession.

I wonder if you actually love him... Or the idea of him

I have wondered about this myself. I'm not sure. Last time when I walked into him, it was horrible for a variety of reasons, but I did feel this strong sensation of "unconditional" love. This is a dude that I will like no matter what he does, and no matter what happens. Even if we never see each other again.

I think I will post it today on my way to the glider field. I got nothing to lose, so I figured I might as well tell him. :)

 

[Anarchy]

I wonder if you actually love him... Or the idea of him?

I've had that happen and didn't deal with it in the best of ways at the time

what I should have done is used mindfulness to catch the rumination, ground and then get on with something more productive.

what I did was create a negative version of the imaginary person (stroppier and more self centered than the real one, smelly too) - a third one of them in my head... not the cleverest of moves.