Should I???

[tigrou465]

I am wondering... I've been feeling pretty bad for the past 3 weeks: crying, panic attacks, not fonctionning - not eating, not dressing up, no shower, not taking the dog out... and so on... My next doctor's appointment is only in 4 weeks and I don't know how I will make it untill then. Today was a little better. Go up (huge improvement!!) had breakfest and went out! Did not sleep through the day (major major improvement!) But I'm still asking myself if I should or not go to the hospital. I always tell myself that nothing more can be done beside what I am doing presently (taking my meds and going to my T each week). Last time I went they did not do anything - just supervised, making sure nothing happens to me. I just feel sad, disheartned. What should I do??

 

[intothelight]

Hi Tig,

I think it would be good idea for you to talk to someone. Maybe a mediation adjustment can be made, but even having someone to talk to is reassuring.

Take care and I am thinking of you.

Debbie

 

[Heather]

Hi tig - I am sorry you are having such a hard time. I know what it's like to be so depressed that you don't want to get out of bed, not eat, not go anywhere.....I agree with ItL maybe a med. adjustment is needed. You sound very depressed. If you don't feel safe. I would definitely admit yourself. I hope you feel better soon. I'll be thinking of you soon and I wish you well. Heather

 

[KP the nut]

(((TIG)))
Hang in sweetie, I know how rough it is for you. Too much to deal with. Talk to someone if you need. Can you contact your T, mine gave me his number so if anything comes up I can speak to him.
Also talk here. And keep with the pm to me. Time difference doensn't mean we are here at the same time, but I will answer you.
You have been so supportive of me, I'm there for you as well
Think of the goals we set in pm, I'll do my sinkful of dishes (OMG we know how to live) and walk the dogs this afternoon, promise;)
Sending love
KP

 

[deer_in_headlights]

(((((((((Tigrou)))))))))

Hi Sweetheart, I'm sorry, I just now saw your post.
I hope you're feeling better, today!

Could you talk with your T more frequently? That helps me a lot, maybe it could help you, too (((((((Tigrou)))))
To give you an idea that maybe you could adopt for what you want:
I work with 2 Ts, and if I get into a crisis, I can email and call them.
You may need to increase your weekly hours to help you through, or talk with your T and see if there is someone he recommends as additional therapeutic support.

For me, having the extra contact has been lifesaving. Sometimes you need that extra support for a little while.
I went through a period of time when I saw one therapist 8-10 hours a week, plus another woman therapist at a victims center for 2 hours/week, plus a group for 3 hours 1 night a week.
If I needed more help, I had several hotlines I could call. I needed to have a lot of professional support, but they all got me through it. It worked very well for me that way, because I had loving support from people who knew my situation, and provided continuing intensive therapy that I needed; instead of simply a room and observation.

I don't know if that is helpful, but wanted to float the idea of more time with your T to you.
I'm so sorry, and distressed, that you are in such pain. You are such a wonderful person, and it is so horrible that you are suffering so deeply!
You're in my heart and thoughts, and I'm sending love (((((((((Tigrou)))))))))))
Deer

 

[tigrou465]

Tnk you Deer and eveyrbody else. Tomorrow - thursday I'm will see my T and I will talk to him about my situation. But I sort of tought about something... I'm taking a medication; Propranolol since november - I used to take 20 mg twice a day untill december 16. After that the dosage doubled. Eventhough this medication is giving to re encode bad memory it's usally given for hight blood pressure and whhen I looked the side effects of this medication is say: depression. I have been feeling down for the last 3 weeks and it correspond to the moment I have had this med. increase... Maybe I'm having the side effects I will for sure check that tomorrow with my T and with the pharmacist. I will keep you posted about it. Meanwhile I'm trying to make small steps. I have set a goal for each day and try to achieve it. It's not easy but I'm hagging on. For mow I will go to bed and try to rest - it has been 2 nights in a row without sleep - about 2-3 hours max. Again thank you all. And huge hugs...

 

[deer_in_headlights]

Oh ((((((((Tigrou))))))))))),

Wouldn't it be amazing and wonderful that you might have discovered the reason for your recent downturn?!
I hope it's the Propranolol!

I'm glad you see your T, tomorrow!
What a great idea to talk with your pharmacist, as well. Tigrou, this is really hopeful. I had a heck of a time with most meds, with some major side-effects, and so finally, my prescribing Dr. let me start off with tiny doses, and increase the dosage very slowly if I did ok. I saw or talked with her on the phone every week for a while, so we could really fine-tune med dosages well.

I hope you're able to get this all sorted out, and quickly. You have suffered deeply... I hope you can get some sleep, tonight.
Last night I could finally get some sleep if I envisioned myself in a very safe place. It helped...

Goodnight ((((((((((Tigrou)))))))))))
Love,
Deer

 

[BloomInWinter]

Wishing you comfort and healing, Tigrou...