Sitting having a lovey cuppa with my vet this morning. Glance up at the clock. Say "Oh! I better get dressed and go to work!" Jump up and go into bedroom. He says "Well what were you doing just sitting there?" I snap "Drinking my tea!" (Thinking - well let's see mate - I got up and cooked you breakfast and packed you a lunch because you want to be on some stupid diet but expect me to plan and prepare all meals even though you have all freakin day to do it and I'm not the bloody army q-store prepping perfectly nutritionally balanced freakin ration packs...) He snarls "Don't answer me back!"
I crack it. Tell him I'm not a child therefore I cannot technically answer him back. Throw my now cold tea in the sink and storm out. He follows apologizing for being a horrible human being. I left for work with him being really down. I've called him twice and he pretended to be upbeat and fine, but I'm pretty sure he's been crying.
Its days like this I really really hate what the army did to him. He's so institutionalized he can barely function in civilian society. He often says he should never have left the army. (Like he had a choice!)
Sigh! He already feels like shit so calling his attention to his unpleasant behavior makes him feel more like shit. But not calling attention to it means I become a doormat and increasingly unhappy. I'm going to ask him if I can come with him next time he sees his psychiatrist to ask about this issue.
I crack it. Tell him I'm not a child therefore I cannot technically answer him back. Throw my now cold tea in the sink and storm out. He follows apologizing for being a horrible human being. I left for work with him being really down. I've called him twice and he pretended to be upbeat and fine, but I'm pretty sure he's been crying.
Its days like this I really really hate what the army did to him. He's so institutionalized he can barely function in civilian society. He often says he should never have left the army. (Like he had a choice!)
Sigh! He already feels like shit so calling his attention to his unpleasant behavior makes him feel more like shit. But not calling attention to it means I become a doormat and increasingly unhappy. I'm going to ask him if I can come with him next time he sees his psychiatrist to ask about this issue.
