My tale of woe has, since last year, included severe, protracted insomnia.
I held up very well till about March, believe it or not. I was reading a lot about it and saw that we can go a long time without sleep. We feel terrible, but the Dr's told me I will not die. OK, that was nice to know.
Well, they did not tell me that I can start to really lose it. First I started to get very hyper at times I did not sleep.
This month has been very hard.
Last week, I took a total of 28 pills trying to sleep. Most were herbs and over counter like Benedryl, so it was not suicide attempt, though some Ativan was in the mix.
I did not tell my T because she can only see me once a month so what is the point?
Well, the last couple nights I began to have those illusions of reference. I thought that God was talking to me and started to wear all this religious attire, sure I was going to be able to live in a commune.
I am not really manic per se, but am certainly feeling very weird. De-realization and fading out, though not losing time.
Has anyone else had such a lack of sleep that it has begun to make them change? Honestly, I keep thinking, "Wow! This is it! I have found the secret to getting better!"
I am reduced to just feeling music and and soft stuff and holding my bear at this moment. Tactile.
Last Jan. I did go to the ER and all they did was give me the Ativan that I ended up taking the time I took 28 pills (as mentioned they were NOT all the Ativan...)
I held up very well till about March, believe it or not. I was reading a lot about it and saw that we can go a long time without sleep. We feel terrible, but the Dr's told me I will not die. OK, that was nice to know.
Well, they did not tell me that I can start to really lose it. First I started to get very hyper at times I did not sleep.
This month has been very hard.
Last week, I took a total of 28 pills trying to sleep. Most were herbs and over counter like Benedryl, so it was not suicide attempt, though some Ativan was in the mix.
I did not tell my T because she can only see me once a month so what is the point?
Well, the last couple nights I began to have those illusions of reference. I thought that God was talking to me and started to wear all this religious attire, sure I was going to be able to live in a commune.
I am not really manic per se, but am certainly feeling very weird. De-realization and fading out, though not losing time.
Has anyone else had such a lack of sleep that it has begun to make them change? Honestly, I keep thinking, "Wow! This is it! I have found the secret to getting better!"
I am reduced to just feeling music and and soft stuff and holding my bear at this moment. Tactile.
Last Jan. I did go to the ER and all they did was give me the Ativan that I ended up taking the time I took 28 pills (as mentioned they were NOT all the Ativan...)
