So Angry

[Buck Compton]

I haven't been sleeping very well lately, I woke up from a bad dream this morning at 1 am and could to back to sleep, I sat there angry at myself for about 30 minutes, and then got super mad at my girlfriend who was sleeping next to me. I started yelling and going on and on about how she never talks to me, and she started crying. In the middle of my rant I realized that I was making no sense and that I was only taking my frustration out on her..

Recently, the last of my friends got sick of my bad attitude and has stopped talking to me, I feel so alone now, but it is ME who has made myself this alone, so I guess I have no one else to blame but myself.

I wish I knew how to get rid of this anger, nothing I do seems to help. I am alone and I hate it. The nightmares are what I wake up angry at, and the nightmares wont cease..

 

[Cheshire]

I wish I had some helpful advice for you but all I can say is that I know how you feel, and I've had very similar things happening with me lately. That anger is horrible and consuming.. and terrifying.

If you want to chat anytime just to vent at someone, feel free to PM me. Take care of yourself.

 

[Reclusive]

Ugh. I was up at 1 this morning too - nightmare, of course. I woke up my fiance to snuggle and he got pissed off and yelled at me. I haven't been back to sleep since.

I am just learning to have anger again, so this may not be helpful. But instead of letting the rage be uncontrolled, maybe you could talk to your girlfriend about your nightmare and tell her how angry it makes you. Be mad AT THE NIGHTMARE instead of lashing out. I don't know if I make any sense, but this is something my fiance and I are working on. My fiance used to yell at me all the time and he's slowly starting to yell at what he's actually angry at instead. So instead of yelling at me, say, he'll yell at his mom, even though she isn't there.

 

[IchBin]

I am sorry to hear about your nightmares. I too struggle with emotionally powerful nightmares from time to time. If you can, when you wake, try and lie still and mentally sift through what was going on in the dream so it'll stick in your memory, and then try writing it down later, or perhaps upon getting out of bed. In the past I have mulled it over in my head throughout the day and then wrote it out later on. I don't know, it just helps to get it out of my psyche and into the world, if that makes any sense, and sometimes rereading it can give you clarity while simultaneously defusing some it its emotional hold on you.

Hang in there buddy.:geek:

 

[mamachick]

When I have gone off on someone undeserving, I have tried to make amends as soon as I realize it. I try to apologize and own it and admit that it is not them and that it is me and that I will try to do better. Its misdirected anger and healthy people dont want to tolerate and rightfully so. I have learned to stop myself sooner and now it is very rare that I misdirect. The sleeping and waking and nightmares is harder. I try to remind myself that only I can comfort me. Reading makes me tired again. Im not proud of this, but the Bible is hard for me to read/understand and that makes me sleepy. I suppose it requires me to concentrate and let go of my thoughts. Can probably see my brain burning as I re-read. Then again, I have a TBI too

 

[ronin47]

That must be so awful. Lack of restful, quality sleep has a tendency to shorten a person's fuse, no matter who you are. I know my brother's girlfriend has been having a lot of difficulty sleeping lately due to stress around what she's going to do once she finishes college, and quite frankly because of it she's been a very unpleasant person to be around. The only suggestion I could offer is to try exercise. Excercise reduces tension which in turn helps with quality of sleep. That helped me a lot when I was having difficulty sleeping due to stress in my life. I hope things get better for you soon and you will have peaceful dreams.