That's one of my sensory triggers. Smoke, pollution - where I can't breathe, escape - the whole nine yards and just had to get the f out of dodge and bought a bottle wine. Had just one glass and out of the blue - SOB out of the blue - my neighbor starts screaming at the top of her lungs at her 8 year old son, berating, abusing him emotionally, cursing at him and doing the number on him that I had done on me. Just letting all hell loose on this child.
So, fortified somewhat and calmed down from my own bloody triggers, I quietly went up to her and just tried with the utmost gentlest of ways - to convey to her - that this was NOT THE WAY AT ALL. Please stop. Don't do this to your child. My heart literally was breaking for the kid, I'd seen him a few times. Typical latch-key kid. Reminscent of me. I was that child. I had the screaming mother. I was the scapegoat for all of her frustrations and angers. Like she had me just for that purpose alone. To have someone to kick around. So - that was the scenario I just witnessed.
She did seem to calm down but this seems to be a family in major trouble. There's a lot of that going on around where I'm living right now. So much dysfunction. On one hand, I'm trying to heal, on the other hand I'm being triggered by everyone else's psychic energy that's just overflowing because people don't have the emotional tools to deal with their issues. It all overflows into the community, and everyone is taking their crap out on everyone else. It's a very toxic environment to be doing healing in.
Anyway, they're quiet now. My other crazy neighbor who's a chainsmoker - whose smoke constantly is wafting into this place is driving me up the wall and just for that I went out after 2 days of sobriety and bought the wine. I just couldn't take it.
Peace out.
So, fortified somewhat and calmed down from my own bloody triggers, I quietly went up to her and just tried with the utmost gentlest of ways - to convey to her - that this was NOT THE WAY AT ALL. Please stop. Don't do this to your child. My heart literally was breaking for the kid, I'd seen him a few times. Typical latch-key kid. Reminscent of me. I was that child. I had the screaming mother. I was the scapegoat for all of her frustrations and angers. Like she had me just for that purpose alone. To have someone to kick around. So - that was the scenario I just witnessed.
She did seem to calm down but this seems to be a family in major trouble. There's a lot of that going on around where I'm living right now. So much dysfunction. On one hand, I'm trying to heal, on the other hand I'm being triggered by everyone else's psychic energy that's just overflowing because people don't have the emotional tools to deal with their issues. It all overflows into the community, and everyone is taking their crap out on everyone else. It's a very toxic environment to be doing healing in.
Anyway, they're quiet now. My other crazy neighbor who's a chainsmoker - whose smoke constantly is wafting into this place is driving me up the wall and just for that I went out after 2 days of sobriety and bought the wine. I just couldn't take it.
Peace out.
