Social Anxiety

[Wolvescry]

One of the things that just makes life so difficult is my anxiety when socializing. It does not take long for people to see I am odd or awkward. Its like my brain is working to fast for my mind to keep up, if that makes sense. Its like being to excited or nervous. Whatever it is like, it is an abundance of some type of alerting emotion. When I get to anxious is social settings (which is always) I can not think straight and become impulsive in my speech, tongue twisted, awkward, and more. When I am around people I know and trust I am nothing like that, unless dealing with nervous setting.

Its worst in the areas of my life where social interaction is needed like school, work, etc..
I can not ask questions when I need to because I get to nervous and forget what I needed. Most people consider my anxiety as being rude, not understanding that its more then that.

I wish I can just easily socialize. Not be in panic fearful mode in the most common social situations. I wish the answer could be easy, and I can find out that its just all in my head, and that if I put my mind to it I can be a more functional individual. I wish I can find out I am crazy and none of the things that haunt me are not real. I wish it can be my fault. I am babbling, haven't got much sleep lately. I have been so scared lately and all I want is to be held and told that I am safe now.

 

[onesie]

You are ok. I totally get what you mean. I have social anxiety too. I can't even think to say anything. I feel like I am freaking out. Like I want to run, hide, cry, bury myself under a rock. I also know, what its like to just wanting to be crazy and not have memories that haunt me. I am sorry, that you are scared. I don't know what your story is, but I can relate. ((Hugs))

 

[Notsowild]

Oh boy can I relate. I consider myself fairly smart and well-read but when it comes to verbal communication I stumble over words, get nervous and get tongue tied.

"ODD " you say ... That's what everyone thinks of me at work.

Just want you to know you are not alone in this.

 

[Wolvescry]

Onesie-Yes I constantly want to hide too. My room is like my little cave. Thanks for sharing. :) (Hugs)

Notsowild-personally I think the best people I have met have been odd balls.

 

[krimson]

I can relate entirely to this. Sometimes I can't even form words I get so anxious, or I say a word incorrectly and it embarrasses the hell out of me. Even when I am at my own home I go around like a ninja sometimes trying to avoid any interaction. I have found myself throwing food i was making in the garbage because somebody was coming and I didn't want to have to interact. It has set me back in life incredibly. I can't hold a job and I have dropped out of college 3 times. I want more than anything to move on from this but it feels like it will never leave me.

 

[Wolvescry]

Krimson, be patient with yourself, find positve people who understand you anxiety and grow from there. As long as you keep working at it you can learn to manage things better. I still get anxious around people but I hang in there. I spend a lot of my time hiking are doing other things that tend to avoid people.