I gave up on my dream of getting SSI. It will never happen. My mom would never let me go to the doctor for my "mental problems", as she didn't take them seriously. I didn't see a doctor about them until I was almost 19, two years ago. Without any documentation or being able to see a consistent T, I have nearly no documentation that would allow me to get it. I was even unapproved for unemployment, even though I HAD to quit my job because it made me suicidal. I worked at a call center for a gas and electric company. People would always call in and tell me off, just because they didn't/couldn't pay their bill. I have already had the notion that everything is my fault, and this just reinforced that (even though I KNOW it wasn't my fault they didn't pay their bills, but it still made me feel that way nonetheless). To top it off, my team lead chose me as the unliked employee. She put my desk right outside of her cubicle and she would listen to me/spy on me and then come out and yell at me, once I got off a call. One time, a customer left a compliment about me for her, and then she listened to the call and yelled at me about something I said to the customer.