Something Must Be Keeping Me Here

[Punky143]

Or else I'd be somewhere else right? Temptations are at an all time high as is SH but I can only think with my mind racing, thats what's saving me...

 

[Justmehere]

Perhaps some small part of you in the midst of all the despair and struggle to not harm you know that it's not time to give up, because you deserve to live, and there reason for hope.

 

[FauxLiz]

I now its hard but take a deep breath, I always try counting back from 1000 when my mind races like that it helps to slow things down, and lets me slowly narrow my focus. I am struggling this weekend as well. We are here for you, talk to us when you are ready or if you need to.

 

[VioletButterfly]

I, too, have a small part in me that seems to keep me here. It is faith-based though, and hope that doesn't offend you. I used to call it the "Strand" as it appeared slender and silver when I pictured it. Now, I know it to be the Holy Spirit. At any rate, it's like @Justmehere noted, it's a small part of you that is fighting not to harm you. Best to you in this struggle - I can so very much relate. You are not alone and I'm glad you reached out. Take care. VB

 

[Punky143]

Thank you. Good luck to you as well. Perhaps I'm scared of knowing where my path will be determined if I choose the end. I too grew up in what appeared very catholic family. Never missed a week of church or Sunday school and always said grace before meals. The form of discipline went hand in hand. Ironically though, nothing ever was spoken about God in between and once I left for college, everything stopped. To this day, I can't recall much from all those years but I can recall making the choice of ending a life and would I want to go to heaven or hell...and it scares me

 

[VioletButterfly]

Praying for you to find some peace and clarity, and that you stay safe. Please keep in mind that your relationship with God/Jesus/the Holy Spirit are not the same thing as "religion." VB