I still get these at times. Especially during difficult times, they can get almost obsessively repetitive.
For me, I think it's about knowing there's a way out, an escape hatch, if you will.
I'm not suicidal; I want to live. When I begin to feel trapped and not up to the challenge or difficulty of life, it's as though my brain knows that it'll take some pressure off if I have a way out, even if I wouldn't use it.
I don't know if this is what anyone else's mind is doing with generating these thoughts, but I figured I'd throw it out here. For myself, it's my mind trying to make me feel less trapped, less like my back is against a wall. Sometimes now I'm able to realize, "Oh! There's one of those...I must be feeling really trapped and overwhelmed." and I can then take action to reduce the stress and/or get more support. Sometimes I can.... sometimes they just carry on talking to themselves and then fade away when the difficulty eases. :rolleyes:
-Dylan
For me, I think it's about knowing there's a way out, an escape hatch, if you will.
I'm not suicidal; I want to live. When I begin to feel trapped and not up to the challenge or difficulty of life, it's as though my brain knows that it'll take some pressure off if I have a way out, even if I wouldn't use it.
I don't know if this is what anyone else's mind is doing with generating these thoughts, but I figured I'd throw it out here. For myself, it's my mind trying to make me feel less trapped, less like my back is against a wall. Sometimes now I'm able to realize, "Oh! There's one of those...I must be feeling really trapped and overwhelmed." and I can then take action to reduce the stress and/or get more support. Sometimes I can.... sometimes they just carry on talking to themselves and then fade away when the difficulty eases. :rolleyes:
-Dylan