Spiraling into flashbacks

[In the weeds]

A friend asked me what the happiest memory of my childhood was and if I could go back and visit that little girl what would I say to her.

Thinking about all that sent me spiraling for two days. I was remembering things long since forgotten.

I was diagnosed about 5 yrs ago. I'm 66. I was so busy just putting one for in front of the other trying to keep my family together that I never looked back. Then something happened five yrs ago that caused my first flashback and I couldn't get out of my 15 yr old self for two weeks. Couldn't communicate with anyone, went through the daily motions on auto-pilot but have since never had one that lasted more than a few hours.

This last one through me for a loop.

Just needed to vent, thank you.

 

[parrotthepolly]

I have had that reaction with long ago happy memories and the feeling of nostalgia but have grown more and more apart of my inner child the more time goes on. It's almost completely numb and I hardly ever feel naturally happy anymore, it doesn't even work artificially either.

It's normal to have a reaction like that and hope you feel better now.

 

[Susan Jane]

A friend asked me what the happiest memory of my childhood was and if I could go back and visit that little girl what would I say to her.

Thinking about all that sent me spiraling for two days. I was remembering things long since forgotten.

I was diagnosed about 5 yrs ago. I'm 66. I was so busy just putting one for in front of the other trying to keep my family together that I never looked back. Then something happened five yrs ago that caused my first flashback and I couldn't get out of my 15 yr old self for two weeks. Couldn't communicate with anyone, went through the daily motions on auto-pilot but have since never had one that lasted more than a few hours.

This last one through me for a loop.

Just needed to vent, thank you.

Welcome. I hate that question because honestly I don’t have one happy memory and realizing that spins me out. I recently had a second 6 month spiral, I so understand… Hope you find some comfort on the forum

 

[In the weeds]

Thank you I remembered a three month period of time that I felt happy when I was young. I said I would tell that girl then to Hold on Tight. Your life will become more wild than you could possibly imagine now. That led me into thinking of the things that were yet to happen.
I'm feeling better now and I'm glad I got through it.
I'm never happy now. I don't remember what it feels like.
I think I may need to talk to my inner child more often.

I have had that reaction with long ago happy memories and the feeling of nostalgia but have grown more and more apart of my inner child the more time goes on. It's almost completely numb and I hardly ever feel naturally happy anymore, it doesn't even work artificially either.

It's normal to have a reaction like that and hope you feel better now.

 

[In the weeds]

Welcome. I hate that question because honestly I don’t have one happy memory and realizing that spins me out. I recently had a second 6 month spiral, I so understand… Hope you find some comfort on the forum

Thank you for understanding. I'm sorry you had to go through another spiral. I hope you feel better now.

 

[Rose White]

recently had a second 6 month spiral,

Nice to see words put to it. Sometimes I forget.