I saw my psychiatrist again today. We talked more and I was able to be assertive which is a small miracle. She was a lot more receptive than I had thought she would be, so that's good.
She agreed that trauma is probably playing a large role in my symptoms, and she agreed to back off the anti-psychotics. It went so well actually that I half-wonder if my perceptions of her as being stubborn and pushy about a SZA diagnosis were somewhat distorted.
Now she had agreed to let me try a mood stabilizer to see how much that will clear up, especially to see for example how much is agitation from mood and how much is hypervigilance and anxiety-induced agitation.
So, starting Lamictal this weekend. Starting out low on 25mg to be increased in 25mg increments every 2 weeks.
Fingers-crossed this can help. Those anti-psychotics were way too heavy-duty and didn't help with mood, and I don't want to even touch benzos.
She agreed that trauma is probably playing a large role in my symptoms, and she agreed to back off the anti-psychotics. It went so well actually that I half-wonder if my perceptions of her as being stubborn and pushy about a SZA diagnosis were somewhat distorted.
Now she had agreed to let me try a mood stabilizer to see how much that will clear up, especially to see for example how much is agitation from mood and how much is hypervigilance and anxiety-induced agitation.
So, starting Lamictal this weekend. Starting out low on 25mg to be increased in 25mg increments every 2 weeks.
Fingers-crossed this can help. Those anti-psychotics were way too heavy-duty and didn't help with mood, and I don't want to even touch benzos.