Starting To Feel Him Behind Me?

[Gs172003]

I'm starting to get flashbacks where I feel his presence behind me. That's new. Is it normal to have them change like that?

 

[wolfiemitch]

I'm starting to get flashbacks where I feel his presence behind me. That's new. Is it normal to hav...

it can be, your mind if filling in the gaps

 

[Jacqueline1]

I'm starting to get flashbacks where I feel his presence behind me. That's new. Is it normal to hav...

Yes....all the time. In fact I get that all the time and if anyone sneaks up behind me I automatically try to defend myself. it's very scary. I'm sorry.

 

[Gs172003]

it can be, your mind if filling in the gaps

That makes sense. The other day I had a realization, then immediately after a flashback. I kept looking behind me cause I could "feel" him there

 

[Jacqueline1]

That makes sense. The other day I had a realization, then immediately after a flashback. I kept loo...

i know right, I've had to be careful my grown son snuck up behind me I never heard him and I went into some kind of crazy karate defense mode. I believe ptsd absolutely affects your reflexes to ...dare I say...crazy fast. I am not sure how others feel but I sympathize I always feel like some one's behind me. I even have to be facing outward to see everyone in restaurants. only to be half comfortable

 

[Gs172003]

i know right, I've had to be careful my grown son snuck up behind me I never heard him and I went...

I don't mean an actual person I'm sorry. The "presence" of my ex husband. I gave a hard time talking about him still and I rarely say his name. Sorry

 

[Gs172003]

I had the same thing happen in the car after my husband took me somewhere that causes me problems ( especially if I'm not prepared for it) had a flashback and could "feel" him in the backseat.

 

[Bristol]

I can always feel 'him' around me, your not alone in that one :)

 

[Gs172003]

I can always feel 'him' around me, your not alone in that one :)

Damn. I'm sorry.

 

[Gs172003]

I always have trouble with separating my now husband from the ex. One of the few things I have talked about is I would get in trouble by my ex for starting my period. He'd get mad. Seriously. When I was first with my now husband I would cry every time I started and apologize to him.He didn't understand it and neither did i. That was 14 years ago. I still to this day will tell my husband when I start. I don't cry anymore but I do apologize.
I can't help it. It just is.


Now as I type this I realize that was NOT the first time. My counselor had me meet her at the last place I lived with the ex. I felt like he would come out any minute.

 

[Gs172003]

If I'm just effing crazy somebody tell me.

 

[joeylittle]

Nope, not crazy @missy meier. I know (for me) it's a pretty regular symptom, ever since starting to work on the trauma in therapy. It comes and goes, but for me it's always tied to a specific memory of a moment in time when the person was behind me, or next to me. Are yours tied to specific moments in memory? Or, can you pinpoint why they are located behind you, as opposed to next to or in front of?

Sometimes 'why' doesn't matter, but sometimes knowing where it's sourcing from can make it easier to turn your mind away from it.