So some may know I am recovering from a melt down. I have been very angry and irritable lately. Its been really hard. I have been managing my symptoms better, tonight is first night I could not sleep.
My partner is leaving out of town for a few days and not only is the timing horrible,but its the first time in our relationship we have been apart this long. We set up security cameras, I have my dogs, I know basic self defense, I should be good.
But I can't help but be terrified. I want him to go because it is the first time since we been together that he gets to visit his friends out of state. I planned a couple of activities to keep me busy during his leave, but can't help being worried.
I am so scared. I am trying to learn to communicate with people more and was thinking about mentioning my fear of being home alone to some friends, but I am scared to let anyone know I am going to spend the weekend alone. The predator may find out or any predator. I think I may need to take some sleeping aids to help me get through the weekend. I was actually very surprised my T did not mention sending me to the doctor to get some anxiety meds. Usaully when I get in these states I get prescribed anxiety med for situational anxiety, but not this time, maybe I will make an appointment for next week, I do not think I can get any before he leaves, I am going to have to settle for my anxiety relief.
My partner is leaving out of town for a few days and not only is the timing horrible,but its the first time in our relationship we have been apart this long. We set up security cameras, I have my dogs, I know basic self defense, I should be good.
But I can't help but be terrified. I want him to go because it is the first time since we been together that he gets to visit his friends out of state. I planned a couple of activities to keep me busy during his leave, but can't help being worried.
I am so scared. I am trying to learn to communicate with people more and was thinking about mentioning my fear of being home alone to some friends, but I am scared to let anyone know I am going to spend the weekend alone. The predator may find out or any predator. I think I may need to take some sleeping aids to help me get through the weekend. I was actually very surprised my T did not mention sending me to the doctor to get some anxiety meds. Usaully when I get in these states I get prescribed anxiety med for situational anxiety, but not this time, maybe I will make an appointment for next week, I do not think I can get any before he leaves, I am going to have to settle for my anxiety relief.
