Still Triggered By New Therapist-

[OKRADLAK]

I was excited and motivated to start with new T., but each day is worse than the last since I found out she is friends with the medical Dr who ruined my life for a long season. Short version- court case, Dr had proof, I had proof, she messed up and the rest is way too painful to even talk about.

Now I only see her bad points and I am afraid.

Now I cannot sleep.

Now the Dr is here with me.

My abuser is here with me.

The T. is cozy at home knowing nothing.

I don't mean to whine, but each day, the Dr is closer and closer, breathing on me like a blanket sufficating.

I am trying DBT, music, relaxation, etc..............any ideas would be welcome.

 

[The Albatross]

Write it out. What your concerns are, and hit it head on in your next session. Give your T a chance to be a T. See what you get. If you continue seeing her as is... you will not benefit as greatly. If you don't tip her off, if she's gonna help you she's got both hands tied behind her back and is walking blind.

You aren't whining. Stay as grounded as you can be. Examine your perceptions. What is real, what is a fear? Bring it to your next session and see what's what. No need to beat around the bush here if it's putting you in a bad spot. God knows, it's hard enough as it is.

 

[Linda Lee Bogard - King]

Hey there, Okradlak - I've had that happen as well, make sure this isn't an extreme reaction to 'change,' your new therapist, but if this doc and you have a strained relationship? Why are you seeing her?

 

[OKRADLAK]

I will indeed write it down. That is a great idea. You are right.....I have to give her a chance. Thanks for clarification. My brain fog is bad right now.

Linda, no, there are 2 different drs.......it is complicated!!

 

[The Albatross]

When you go in, try to be clear and put forward your concerns. Be prepared to listen, try to be open minded as she responds. Be willing to hear her perspective, but then filter it through your own clarified views. If you can't square it up, tell her so. It's all about safety, and trust, even with your T.

I got a photo some where that says, "speak the truth even if your voice shakes". I try to do more than I'm comfortable with and risk staying open to help.

Here ya go:

 

[OKRADLAK]

This is a great image and I will think of it when I go in. I will let you know how it goes. THanks, Albatros!

 

[The Albatross]

You are so very welcome. and feel free to share your clarified perspectives, I do that off forum with people who have known me for two years... yeah I "trust them" because they can read and they have no vested interest in my 3D life except for me to be "whole and healing". (Works for me at the moment)

I am blunt to a fault, sometimes wrong, but I always... always calls em like I sees em.

 

[The Albatross]

The old phrase, "Gird your loins" comes to mind. If you look at my avatar, I build up myself to deal with the events of the day. If you look at my expression, it is apros po (sp?) I do my best and deal with the consequences later. It is the only way I can move forward.