I was looking up online help for ptsd and came across this site 2day. I've had it for as long as I can remember. I'm now 46. Have been counselled for depression and anxiety a few times in my past. Have been prescribed antidepressants but never took them as have strong personal reasons for not- no reflection at all on another's choice.
Have been told both in the past and very recently that I have ptsd. I used to just group it into the basket with the other diagnoses. It is only today that I have researched it as an independant condition. This has filled in a few gaps for me such as my apparent disassociation and why my eyes apparently flicker showing I am recalling a memory (according to the court appointed psych I recently had to see) as well as my inability to communicate or articulate about past events when questioned.
I'm going through a nasty divorce involving custody and events are triggering symptoms again. panic attacks, sleep disturbances, lashing out in my sleep, withdrawing from the world (blinds are closed 24/7) no feelings for anyone-couldn't care less anymore what happens, headaches, wanting to have a drink more and more, fatalistic thinking etc. Childhood traumas compounded into life events that were also traumatic so there seems to always be a trigger waiting to occur. Just when I think I've got it under control and can be free to be me......:wall:
Have been told both in the past and very recently that I have ptsd. I used to just group it into the basket with the other diagnoses. It is only today that I have researched it as an independant condition. This has filled in a few gaps for me such as my apparent disassociation and why my eyes apparently flicker showing I am recalling a memory (according to the court appointed psych I recently had to see) as well as my inability to communicate or articulate about past events when questioned.
I'm going through a nasty divorce involving custody and events are triggering symptoms again. panic attacks, sleep disturbances, lashing out in my sleep, withdrawing from the world (blinds are closed 24/7) no feelings for anyone-couldn't care less anymore what happens, headaches, wanting to have a drink more and more, fatalistic thinking etc. Childhood traumas compounded into life events that were also traumatic so there seems to always be a trigger waiting to occur. Just when I think I've got it under control and can be free to be me......:wall:
