blacksands
New Here
This is my first post on this forum, I thought I'd give it a try since lately I am struggling. I go to therapy 2x a week, currently taking an anti depressant daily & anxiety meds as needed.
My husband is in the military, I am happily married but find the relocating and having to regroup especially difficult on me, with the ptsd dynamic.
We moved back to my home town almost a year ago, and I assumed being in a familiar environment would make life a little easier. however it has brought back alot of memories, good & bad. I've found myself becoming a bit of a recluse, which I haven't always been this way. Most of my instability began after the birth of my daughter.
I am just really bummed, I try really hard to put myself out there and make friends. however in this lifestyle that's already tricky at times, but I am so afraid of being judged or criticized I often shy away from opening up to people. People describe me as very guarded, and I think they find it intimidating. I of course don't mean to put off that vibe, but due to my experiences it's so hard for me to trust!
My husband is in the military, I am happily married but find the relocating and having to regroup especially difficult on me, with the ptsd dynamic.
We moved back to my home town almost a year ago, and I assumed being in a familiar environment would make life a little easier. however it has brought back alot of memories, good & bad. I've found myself becoming a bit of a recluse, which I haven't always been this way. Most of my instability began after the birth of my daughter.
I am just really bummed, I try really hard to put myself out there and make friends. however in this lifestyle that's already tricky at times, but I am so afraid of being judged or criticized I often shy away from opening up to people. People describe me as very guarded, and I think they find it intimidating. I of course don't mean to put off that vibe, but due to my experiences it's so hard for me to trust!
