Struggling With Largely Unresolved Grief

[batgirl]

Oh I am so sorry Tabitha, I didn't realize your brother died as well! I've been sort of out of it lately, guess I didn't read properly. My brother died almost 6 months ago... it is hard. The balloon idea sounds really nice though. Like Bec said I hope you do some nice stuff for yourself and take care.

 

[No-Twitch-Tabitha]

I took the last 2 days off from work and just stayed in and to myself. I needed some time alone, so I took it for a change.

Today is the 10th anniversary of my mother's death, so I'm a bit low-key today. Feling numb.

Feels like the calm before the emotional storm...

 

[becvan]

I'm glad to hear that your taking care of yourself.

Do you find that when you feel that your in the calm before the emotional storm, you end up crying later?

Just wondering as that is usually what hits me.

I'm sorry about your mom. Hope your doing okay.


bec

 

[No-Twitch-Tabitha]

Do you find that when you feel that your in the calm before the emotional storm, you end up crying later?

Not really. I'm struggling with the crying thing as I have issues from childhood about crying. I cried very easily as a child to the point that whenever I was being punished by my mother and I started crying, she would tell me "Stop crying. You don't mean it." So every time I'm about to cry or I want to let a sob out, I hear her voice.

The relationship between my mother and myself was...tense at its best. But I grieve for her just the same.