Justmehere
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My father died. He was at times terribly abusive. He was also at other times really good. He was a mix of Abilty to be a terrible human and a good human.
He died suddenly in ab unexpected way. He had just come back into my life after maybe 18 years gone. For the past two years he was only his good side with me. The day he died… it was already a bad day and he was going to call and never called.
To say I’m complexity wrecked by his sudden death is an understatement.
I did okay getting through the first bit and being around family. I’m now back at my home, and suddenly I’m numb and exhausted. I’m in a depersonalized/derealized fog. I’m way too alone. It hits the worst when im alone but hands on 24-7.
I have some clinical support kicking in this week. Right now, I can’t seem to get myself out of the dissociated fog.
Suggestions?
He died suddenly in ab unexpected way. He had just come back into my life after maybe 18 years gone. For the past two years he was only his good side with me. The day he died… it was already a bad day and he was going to call and never called.
To say I’m complexity wrecked by his sudden death is an understatement.
I did okay getting through the first bit and being around family. I’m now back at my home, and suddenly I’m numb and exhausted. I’m in a depersonalized/derealized fog. I’m way too alone. It hits the worst when im alone but hands on 24-7.
I have some clinical support kicking in this week. Right now, I can’t seem to get myself out of the dissociated fog.
Suggestions?