Hi deborah,
Evil men and women can do so much harm. My ex was one of those. I suffered for many years because of evil men and women in my life. Now, i'm alone and happy (most of the time). I dissociate myself all the time, so I understand how you feel. If I may, I would like to suggest something that might help.
Become the type of person you want to be. Only watch programs that lift you. Only read books that lift you. Only associate with people who help you feel good about who you are. Don't allow anyone to put you down. There are many things in life that we have no control over, but these few things we do have control over.
I'm old now, but that is something i learned by doing. While it's true, sometimes we digress and wander off our chosen course, we can get back on the right path and find happiness. One of the books I read, that helped me was written by a woman by the name of Carrie Ten Boom. The Hiding Place. She writes about how she was taken to a concentration camp, and how she managed to survive. One of the things she speaks of is being grateful for fleas. There are others who went through horrible things that have written about them. I really recommend you read them. They can show you how to find peace when all around you is falling apart.
End of lecture. That's the bad thing about getting old. You finally have answers, but no one asks the questions.
Safenow
