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Hi, any input is welcome.
I have had 2 psychologists suggest that I have DID. I have parts that come out and take over, no black-outs anymore. Psychiatrist has diagnosed me with PTSD and I was super ill for a long time.
I am in therapy, not a specialist but I am making progress.
Symptoms: Sleep issues: parts coming out (not at work), exhausted, crying spells that just happen all of a sudden, constant stress, sometimes I collapse on the floor for exhaustion, not able to take care of my hygiene or home or eating, drinking water (this is on and off), I am constantly scared. The more stressed I am at work, the shittier I sleep. I work from home and only work a few hours of the hours I am supposed to do, since I am symptomatic.
I just got laid off and landed a new job. It is simple for IT but the crew is good, it is a consultancy agency. I am having a job offer to work for the government with a high profile IT project, being a test leader. The job will not mean more money, but more challenging work, a very good manager and perhaps a good team. I know that people have burned out in the project.
I am really bored at my new job, that is why I am thinking about changing. If I was well it would have been a no-brainer but I suspect that I might be burning out, but I am not sure.
What I experience at work is that I am constantly scared. Always. Scared of being shit, of being fired and then having to find a job that I don't want. I am soon 41 so I have a long journey ahead of me.
I will be in therapy for at least another year I think. I don't have a doctor/psychiatrist to consult.
If I stay I am scared that I will be super bored - the healthy me wants to change. If I factor in my illness - I might become really ill if I change jobs. I am not sure how much stress I can handle. If I was healthy I would jump to the new job, no hesitation.
Everyday is a struggle, but it has always been like that.
I have been talking to a lot of people about this. I am scared to become ill and scared to be fired again from the agency.
How bad are the symptoms? Any suggestions on what to do?
I have had 2 psychologists suggest that I have DID. I have parts that come out and take over, no black-outs anymore. Psychiatrist has diagnosed me with PTSD and I was super ill for a long time.
I am in therapy, not a specialist but I am making progress.
Symptoms: Sleep issues: parts coming out (not at work), exhausted, crying spells that just happen all of a sudden, constant stress, sometimes I collapse on the floor for exhaustion, not able to take care of my hygiene or home or eating, drinking water (this is on and off), I am constantly scared. The more stressed I am at work, the shittier I sleep. I work from home and only work a few hours of the hours I am supposed to do, since I am symptomatic.
I just got laid off and landed a new job. It is simple for IT but the crew is good, it is a consultancy agency. I am having a job offer to work for the government with a high profile IT project, being a test leader. The job will not mean more money, but more challenging work, a very good manager and perhaps a good team. I know that people have burned out in the project.
I am really bored at my new job, that is why I am thinking about changing. If I was well it would have been a no-brainer but I suspect that I might be burning out, but I am not sure.
What I experience at work is that I am constantly scared. Always. Scared of being shit, of being fired and then having to find a job that I don't want. I am soon 41 so I have a long journey ahead of me.
I will be in therapy for at least another year I think. I don't have a doctor/psychiatrist to consult.
If I stay I am scared that I will be super bored - the healthy me wants to change. If I factor in my illness - I might become really ill if I change jobs. I am not sure how much stress I can handle. If I was healthy I would jump to the new job, no hesitation.
Everyday is a struggle, but it has always been like that.
I have been talking to a lot of people about this. I am scared to become ill and scared to be fired again from the agency.
How bad are the symptoms? Any suggestions on what to do?