System Overload

[Nikie]

Overloaded by Suicidal cravings :banghead: i have the past few days starting Thursday afternoon I have had this downslope shit..:speechless:... Supertube unstoppable sliding into this deeeeeep shothole with no grip or anything to hold on ...
Thinking of the target anarchy gave me.. Its ridiculous.. But don't want to disappoint anybody ... Started:tdown: with a trigger and its building up. Made the mistake to Google termination cos I didn't know what it meant in English..

 

[ms spock]

Is there anything that you can to do that would soothe yourself @Nikie?

 

[Nikie]

Keep that thought of a promise I made
Don't drink alcohol
Don't take the stuff
Don't drive
Don't look week before my kids
Don't let my husband know

I would just like to sit quiet in my .......... With my ........... And think.....
My head spins out so I will probably pass out soon.
I feel to much hate towards myself for the 5 min self compassion brake do you have any suggestions Ms Spock?

 

[ms spock]

I don't know your situation @Nikie very well at all. So I can make suggestions but they may not be so relevant to you.

Can you please ring your trauma therapist or a crisis line? Ending the isolation is an important part of the process for crisis management, and is very important for managing suicidal ideation, depression and full on moments.

I think being cautious is the way to go - don't do anything too suddenly.

 

[ms spock]

Is it possible that you do "Soothe, Soften and Allow"? but not if you can't contain yourself or ground.

Can you go and exercise hard for half an hour or an hour?

Can you ring a support person?

 

[ms spock]

How about a Chocolate Meditation?

http://franticworld.com/free-meditations-from-mindfulness/

 

[ms spock]

Can you read a book?

Read a website? http://www.dbtselfhelp.com/

 

[ms spock]

Why can't you talk to your husband? I think that could be a good thing to do.

 

[Nikie]

I do

I don't know your situation @Nikie very well at all. So I can make suggestions but th...

have no T my husband don't believe in them. .last time in said to him he was nearly hysterical . I can do the soothing I will probably sleep ..can go Swim
I will do reading

 

[Nikie]

Its an over welming feeling. My kids are in the house I am okey. I have to be okey they would be so hurt by me that's why I need to hide in ... You know .

 

[SoSadGuilty]

Oh @Nikie the pain is so overwhelming isn't it. I'm so sorry to read you feel like this but I can empathise........