Taking a Big Breath

[wyoming_gal]

Hello to all.

I recently lost the love of my life to a brutal and selfish murder at the hands of the mother of his children and her boyfriend and have been suffering from PSTD and survivor's guilt for a little more than two months now. I stumbled upon this site while trying to find more information about healing and coping. I have spent the summer in constant fear of the people who killed my fiance and now that they have been arrested I feel like I can start to try to get in a better emotional and mental place. Right now though, the feelings and triggers are all still very raw and very real.

I've never really participated in an online forum before so this is all very new to me. Thanks to all who will read this.

~ wyoming_gal

 

[Mercy]

Welcome, wyoming gal,
I'm sorry that you have been through such a brutal thing with so much loss. Heart break and horror and fear certainly are hard to carry alone. It will really help to find a good PTSD therapist soon. The sooner you seek treatment the better it will be for your recovery and you won't get stuck where you are now.

It is good you posted here. There are lots of compassionate people here who undeerstand what you are going through.

 

[blue_eyed_angel]

Welcome to the forum wyoming_gal :)

 

[void]

:smile:Welcome!

Mercy is very wise to recommend treatment right away. Make sure they really understand trauma recovery as some therapists do not.

Peace to you!!
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[sirsir]

Welcome Wyoming gal. Good luck finding Peace.

 

[wyoming_gal]

Thanks everyone. I apologize for the delay in replying, but I had to travel down to the Formal Filing of Charges this week. I appreciate your warm responses and replies :)

I have been trying to find a therapist that I can work with, the options in my area and price range are limited (I have no insurance and the community clinic isn't taking any additional cases at the moment)... the two therapists I have seen do not seem to understand the immensity of the trauma I have experienced (the individuals responsible traveled from one state to where we lived... they were unsuccessful (but very close to our residence) in finding him here and instead caught up with him near where they live the following weekend when he went to visit his children).

Thanks again for your replies.