Last night was almost the first time but I resisted because of the the posts in this forum. Last night I found for the first time in many many months a comfortable way to lie down in my bed and and arrrange pillow and blankets to support my shoulder so I had no pain.... ok maybe a little but it was dull more like numb... lets just say I was at least almost comfortable.... But the problem I just laid there staring at the ceilling. I tried meditation music and other sound stuff that has helped in the past blah blah blah.
I then said to myself "Hey maybe now I should take the pain pill and see what happens"................ Nope I thought about it decided to read some of the sad posts here about those that have gone way of the bottle and pill and read there posts of struggle and thought about how some of my family has resorted to those methods and that was all that I needed. Well I only slept 4 hours but it wasn/t bad. Woke up because of nightmare but at least the sun was up and I did not have to see it rise as I often due.
Is this the point I should feel good about resisting taking pain meds for which I believe it was not intended or feel so sad for those that suffer worse than I that they would probably just about try or do anything to mask there pains?.................
I then said to myself "Hey maybe now I should take the pain pill and see what happens"................ Nope I thought about it decided to read some of the sad posts here about those that have gone way of the bottle and pill and read there posts of struggle and thought about how some of my family has resorted to those methods and that was all that I needed. Well I only slept 4 hours but it wasn/t bad. Woke up because of nightmare but at least the sun was up and I did not have to see it rise as I often due.
Is this the point I should feel good about resisting taking pain meds for which I believe it was not intended or feel so sad for those that suffer worse than I that they would probably just about try or do anything to mask there pains?.................